oh, love's gonna get you down.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

i cant find the software for my phone. hai sian. i wana upload some pix. super lazy to switch on the other laptop.

i like the straits times horoscope. it doesnt foretell wats gona happen for the day. but somehow, it will always relate to you bcus it talks abt ur personality.

mine for today was sth like, dont always think abt wats lacking in ur life when in fact, ur life is alrd great.

i took out all the clothes from 3 shelves onto the bed. and theres still 3 other more compartments. i nv knew i have so much clothes. i wanted to pack but im feeling so lazy now. maybe ltr la.

sakae last night. keropok last night. hot fudge sundae last night. lays bbq last night.

a lot a lot of potatoes the night before last. breko was good but i regretted ordering cus i ate a curry bun and milo before meeting the Perfects.

jus ate eclairs. been eating that and redcurrant biscuits every night. sinful.

i thought i lost weight last wk. even if i did, i know i gained it all back this wk. :(

anw. i was really unhappy on thur. with work. i really felt like quitting. felt v silly on fri cus i was feeling better and i didnt feel like quitting. but i really cant stand pple who are petty and childish and sensitive and jus bcus you are, you make ur colleagues' lives more difficult. cold war etc. helo. 47yrs old le lor. hai duno la.

i mus save le. spent a lot this wk. took cab 6 times. returned wen 19bucks. cake 20bucks. makan 12bucks. breko 16 or sth.

im gona rest and go shop ltr! if im hardworking enough.

patrick is in msia agn. he has a mistress ar...

at 12:58 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

hai. the show is so sad.

yay. i hope patrick is really gona get a dvd player tmr then i can go splurge on vcds. :)

ate super a lot today cus its my niece's first mth celebration. ate from morn till night lor. sigh. i thought i lost weight but i didnt and my fam also assured me that i didnt. hai.

mr bean was not good. expected it anw so its ok la. jus worried my dad wont enjoy it. eh i treated them all lor. including patrick's gf. so nice of me right. haha.

at 12:57 AM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

a few of my precious jus dropped off. shit. my eyelashes. sigh.

im qt tired of pple who are overly critical of others.
and worse still, they say, criticising others doesnt mean they are perfect and that others are wrong bcus others are wrong and not bcus they are right. helo. wait till one day i see u fall.
sigh. but i jus take it all in. its hurtful sometimes. though not abt me. if i didnt mention him, nobody wld know the bad side of him either. so its all my fault.

the night is still young. jus came back tmnt. haha aft watching, i finally know why i liked michaelangelo. did i spell it right? hes cute. and leo is shuai. the show is skippable. but its also watchable la. i was almost falling aslp at the beginning.

was telling pN i miss watching uncommercialised shows. and i had one person who acc me all the time. i was too dependent.

i finally went shopping! tried on 6 tops in one shop and i bought 2. dun wana spend too much. went kino too... sigh. anw. saw a lot of stuff i wana buy. in the end, i only bought a book. mus stop splurging. i gotta pay for sch fees. also bought redcurrant biscuits from marks and spencer. wanted to get the dark choc digestives but its 4g of fat per pc! so i put it back on the shelf. haha.

got to eat mos fish burger for dinner. yummy. and 2 whipped potato from kfc. yummy yummy.

at 1:37 AM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

home swt home. its 3.30. its so nice having night riders. its free and it stops at my bus stop. :)

went esplanade for dinner. was qt enjoyable. i hope things will be better for me and za on mon. shall get her sth. wat she likes ar? hai sian.

anw. we didnt go esplanade la. hahaha not so highclass. we went makan sutra. its beside esplanade. haha. we took ssangyong there. the cabfare was 30. supposed to be 40 lor. so nice of susy jolyn. shes one of our cab drivers.

the 13 of us split into 2 tables. my table ordered a lot. we had 6 pple. we ordered: mee goreng, kampung fried rice with chicken, 30 satay with ketupat, oyster omelette, stingray, gado gado, cheng teng, fried banana with kaya, cheese prata and duno wat else. and of cus, teh tarik for everyone. haha super a lot of food right. i tink both tables spent abt 100 lor. hmm... i hope we can be bonded and stop making mistakes at work. but i know, nth can perfect la.

heard from gw that kent wanted supper but i was really full. so i acc von to ps and we played arcade games. slacked at starbucks cus the arcade closes at 12, before we headed home. gona do some work now.

oh yah. kellyna has corner with love vcds. haha but am not v excited la. can slowly watch on youtube ma. right? yes.

btw. a pc of good news and a pc of bad news. gd news first. patrick called and told me he got the 2nd highest mark or sth in the whole of spore for his acca audit paper. that means hes ranked 2nd la. so good lor. i mus do my fam and loved ones proud someday too. i will try. haha and the bad news: jimmy's gf failed it. hahaha.

k la. gotta work now. bye.

at 3:30 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

which one shld i get?

im not getting materialistic, if u tink i am. i need a wallet. i haven got a proper one since the bkk trip. i saw a few nice guess bags online. haha but i will not get a bag so exp la.

at 6:49 PM

time to slp now though not slpy.

the tau huay at chomp chomp wasnt good. was craving for orr lua bt all stalls had alrd closed. maybe we went out too late. reached there at 1.30. nvm. tmr then.

gd nite...

at 4:44 AM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

corner with love is out in stores alrd. i jus saw it. its either dvds or vcds. both differ by less than 10dollars anw. its abt 50 for the whole set... hmm... shld i get?

i feel like getting a babydoll top and eyeshadow and nailpolish. but i thot i spent too much today. abt 90? bought some misc stuff, a belt and conditioner for my hair cus its v bad. i wan to keep it long u see... was home at 4. quickly gobbled down my nasi lemak with my fav chili sauce and chicken wing and went to bed. didnt even know it was alrd 6.30 until vincent called.

i was qt sad ytd. jackson suddenly left. i was sad bcus i didnt even know. its like, ur gd-fren-to-be suddenly leaves, and u wont be seeing him/her ever again. thats why im always saying (to myself), dont have too high hopes. dont always feel upset/disppointed when in fact, nobody (this includes the other party) actually feels the same way or even cares abt ur presence. dont expect appreciation. dont wait. there will not be.

btw. i dont like him la. in case u suspect again. im jus talking abt friends, in general.

i tink wat stef sun said is right. she said it before too. they said, pple always have regrets and hope for a 2nd chance. pple (me, in this case) said, if they cld turn back time or be given another chance, they wldnt do wat they did. and both "she"s said, even if time cld be turned back or another chance was given, u wld have done the same thing again.

i admit that this is true. bcus its still me.

i shld go on diet even though von said i look better with more "flesh". siao. i wan this (below)!

i wonder why i dont finish shows. is it because i dont like things to end? i didnt watch the ending of mvp qing ren, the rose (qiang wei zhi lian), e zuo ju zhi wen, hana kimi (hua yang shao nian shao nuu)... and i dont know wat else. i did finish meteor garden and e mo though. haha they are really good shows. right Perfects? but i guess i really hate corner with love to end cus its really the best drama of the century. was kinda sad when i saw the ranking of tw idol dramas. wang zi bian qing wa (prince become frog?) is no. 1. will watch when i feel like it. haha. shld be nice la since its top.

oh yah. we celebrated za's bday on thur. hope she was happy. i tink she was. she bought us a lot of yummy food the next day. haha. curry puffs buns and all. thank you mummy. :)

patrick is in msia but anw. mr bean is not out yet. i wanted to go along too but i cldnt mk it. quick come back! i wana get a dvd player leh. and more bedshts!

at 9:37 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

omg. last year june 20th or sth. my god. i was so slim la. this is shit. look at wat smrt has done to me!

at 10:47 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007

neo!! i miss u! i wasnt disappointed cus i didnt expect much anw. i thought it was boring at first but the ending made me like the show. :) and the cora girl is totally lame. but i wan to have hair like hers! i shall grow long mine. im serious...

anyways... lalalala~

"I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed"

hahaha. hugh grant shld cut an album la!

wen... i miss u too. its ok that ur busy. as long as ur busy doing work and not playing. the movie is not that impt la. i dont wana be disappointed and i dont wan u to be someone useless. cant rem wat we said abt ur future. cleaner? roadsweeper? hahah. i rem i said prostitute. :x

u girls take care and we hafta meet up v soon k cus wen is gg aussie with her fling!

at 10:19 PM

my christmas wishlist. which i know for sure nobody will buy for me cus nobody knows what these are but i love them and i watch them every sun and i cry every sun. and gets scolded by patrick every sunday for being silly cus its just a show.

i dont think they sell this in spore but i want this!

at 12:52 AM

Way Back Into Love :)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh

at 12:51 AM

jus got home not long ago. feeling so warm. was rushing here and there to get ciggs and hokkien mee for dad. he was hungry. so was philip. glad the mama shop auntie didnt ask for my ic. 7-11 pple always ask me for it.

music&lyrics was good cus of the ending. it was touching and good. endings shld always be good. i like movies with endings that mk me go awww... or yes! haha and i love the way they sang the duet. i love the soundtrack and i like hugh grant and his accent... slang watever.

slept at 6 this morn cus of movie and suppering (1 egg 1 plain) at thomson. ate too much this wkend. i ate the nachos all by myself jus now. i know i shld haf shared. haha. too late for regrets.

300 was not bad. i wasnt bored la. i love the king. hes a warrior. SPARTAN! hahah. jus that he died. and the other handsome guy too.

hmm... mr bean this wkend. i hope to go with my family. :) missing patrick a lot. started since he stepped out of hse. haha.

spent few hundred these two weeks. i dont know wat i spent on. crazyness. hafta save le.

at 12:25 AM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

i totally forgot that patrick was gg thailand. he jus left for the airport. i will miss his presence. and when he comes back, we haf got a few things to do.

1. to get a dvd player. he gave ours to his ex-gf! wat nonsense lor. no wonder its missing. siao leh.
2. to swap our set-top box. nbd bothers to go so i shall do it. and get some additional channels. yay.
3. to go jb to get mati su. he loves it. xuan bought from msia. he finished everything by himself. siao.

the malay wedding downstairs is playing winter sonata music. which reminds me... sigh. i know wat i wan alrd. but i cant get it... :(

supposed to attend an uol talk but im super lazy. wanted to go novena sq but v lazy also. maybe ltr lor...

went ktv till 2plus on thur night. crazyness. was v tired (excuses) so cabbed to work and was v tired again (excuses again) so i cabbed home. haha. spent qt a lot these days. i finished my hongbao money in this wk. i dont know wat i spent on. siao. took halfday on wed. bought bedshts and a skirt that day. i dont know if i'll wear it though. i still haven gotten my wallet yet! getting my birks soon... as for wallet... i'll see how la. hafta go take a look at the coach shops first... hmm...

pw! are u free yet? pursuit of happyness gona be over soon leh!

gona get a nano. but for wat? kinda useless for me. i can survive without music.

yea. gg for a cruise will be good. to relax a bit...

at 4:57 PM

wat did i do the past one wk?

ive been missing the Perfects. :)

分手到底是不是你要的结果
给不了我太多还不准我难过
不知道是为了什么
还要把你无力的爱记得那么多
怎么放手

也许上天安排你我擦身而过
我明白和你的爱不可能会有结果
你留下泛黄的承诺
要我抱着你的双手流着泪不准你走
说我贱我也无话可说

连哭都是我的错
在你面前还要我怎么做
要我看见你们拥抱还一笑而过
沉默是我的错

连哭都是我的错
空房间独自等待着日落
爱没有进入身体就已经太执着
爱你是我错连结束也是我的错

at 1:26 PM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

PC's bday was qt good. love all of the Perfects. i wished we had time to play mj though. dont worry. wasnt disappointed or depressed. haha. its jus mj.

below is a quick summary of wat went on that night. :)

so we bluffed PC i was in phuket and PN told her we wld meet on fri instead. thats 2 days aft her actual bday. we got dennis to bring her out and aft work, we met up to decor her room. i had bought the stuff last wkend. thats the day me and patrick quarrelled. haha.

we had to convince PC's perfectMum that we are the Perfects before she cld let us in. and finally she did, cus we showed her the Perfectness of us. hahaha.

we only had less than 3hrs to blow the balloons and mk the collage. we were still slacking arnd when dennis told us they wld be reaching in SIX more mins la. super gan cheong. we quickly wrote the captions for the photos and sticked the balloons on anywhere. when she opened her door, we surprised her with loads of crazy ribbon and party poppers. then we gave her the collage made by PN with photos printed by PW. we made her guess wats the next present (ipod nano) and she cldnt so we made her dance to us singing our family dance song. videos are with the bday girl. haha. the last surprise was dark devotion from tcc. she loves it and she was craving for it that day and she got it. happy PC.

photos are in PN's LJ. nobody sent me. :( so i grabbed a few from her.

and we spent the whole night munching on cny goodies and PC's perfectMum's beef. damn nice.

3 cheers to perfectMum!
3 cheers to perfectChar for letting the Perfects to meet as a whole and for sending us home. thank you. :)
3 cheers to perfectNeo for making the collage within such a short period of time though the photos cldnt stick v well. =p
3 cheers to perfectWen for buying the nano, gg town to get Dark Devotion, develop the photos and gg down bishan at the v last min to get candles cus PP and her friend really cldnt find :(
3 cheers to perfectPat for providing the website to get the nano, buying the decor and doing other misc stuff. hahaha.
only 1 cheer to imperfectKang for "supervising" = doing nothing

and perfectChar, bcus of u...

i argued with my executive and quarelled with patrick. sigh. my exec was angry that i wanted to take leave. cus we alrd decided to lao yu sheng on that day. but i insisted on taking leave and i told her. "no matter wat, i mus take leave on that day." im lucky im still in the company lor.

neo is on good-terms-no-more with her parents. neo told me shes getting a lawyer to sue them for treating her like a kid when shes actually almost 40.

wen felt sick in town that day and xt had to rushed all the way to town to acc her cus i cldnt make it in time. was lao-ing yu sheng. xt was in misa with her friends lor.

as for kangs, u do not have to feel bad. nth happened to her. haha actually, without kw, we might n ot be able to enter her hse. perfectMum was kinda hesitant to let us in cus she nv met us before. luckily she remembered kw. if not, our plan wld be a total flop. so she deserves another cheer. thats two cheers. haha.

at 12:08 AM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

yes. my bro is 43kg. look. hahaha. im evil.

haha kidding la. though hes really 43, but hes not that fat. its the angle prob.

i love all these pics.

my colleagues love this. they said hes super cute here. like sis like bro ma. =P

my bro is really super dong shi. am really v glad to have a bro like him. was angry with him for getting only 70 for eng jus now. then ltr i found out that the highest mark was only 83. so i tink the paper shld be qt difficult?

i always wait for my cab at the same place every morn. and on mon, i saw a cat lying by the road. so i walked nearer to get a closer look as i was curious. and to my horror, it was dead. ants were all over it. super super gross.

then two days ltr, as usual, i went to the same place to take a cab. and i saw the cat from far. it was still there. i didnt approach it this time cus i cld not imagine wat it was like alrd. worms maybe. yucks. super duper ultra gross la. urgh.

i guess neo mus be smirking now. neo. cats are living things too ok.

at 11:20 PM

finally got my beauty slp jus now. 2hrs. was so tired (lazy) this wk that i took cab to work EVERYDAY. this is not a record im proud of. sigh. there goes 40 bucks.

withdrew 50dollars last night and im left with 50cts now. haha. gotta save le la! ate nydc bolognaise and watched protege with PW last night. haha the movie was qt scary. we both thought we had went to the wrong cinema la. haha ok i exaggerated. but the woman was super scary. she was like a ghost lor. and the show has a lot of loopholes. loopholes not bcus its not perfect or incomplete. loopholes as in there were a few things we wanted to find out but no one could tell us. hmm...

aft the horrow movie, we went coffee club and ordered mocha vanilla, mochachinno, calamari and apple crumble. sounds v yummy hor. hahah. the apple crumble wasnt v nice but ok la. haha i talked a lot a lot and i swear i had sorethroat this morn.

slept at 5 and was supposed to wake up at 10 but i wanted to slp more. so i only called PW at 11.30. she said my hair is nice and she had always wanted to cut short so i decided to be nice (like my hair) and bring her to neogeo. yay yay. seeing uncle neogeo more often now. hahaha. dont worry. am not in love with him.

the uncle took almost 2hrs cutting her hair. and he spent only 15mins on mine the other day.

sorry. am v lazy to choose wat to post. btw. i likeD her hair. haha cus it was v nice at the salon. now flatten alrd i guess. but i still like the sides and the back. damn pro la the uncle. haha. :D

hahaha the above pic is ugly. an eye for an eye ok wen. --> http://xwenx.livejournal.com

had insomnia a few nights this wk. was v bad. 4hrs in bed doing nth but rolling abt and thinking abt work. not on purpose. sigh. ever since i tendered, ive been like this. im born to be a slave la.

can someone go with me jolin's concert? cus i tink shes damn hot. u may hate her lips. u may say her boops are fake. u may tink shes gross. i still wish i can go. anyone out there? sigh.

at 9:33 PM