oh, love's gonna get you down.

Friday, September 29, 2006

i know wen char and neo are gona be so pissed.

i jus came home from supper.

no no listen to me first.

i called gw at 9.50 to tell him i was not going to meet him at thomson prata hse anymore. he asked me in the evening if i wanted to go supper so i told him abt our meeting. then gw said he and wy wld join us over there. in the end, i told u guys i cldnt go cus i was dead tired and i was still at wdls at 9.30 ma. but gw and wy had alrd reached thomson and alrd found a parking lot. they said they were bored and wanted me to go along as they cld laugh at me. hai. so he came to my hse and fetched me and we went casuarina.

i didnt eat anything since dinner was kfc and we had a debrief again and i was munching on butter cookies and choc wafer sticks. hai. za was v hungry and i felt bad for her so i ordered kfc... :(

my butt is humongous. its gona be titanic soon. damn. argh. shit. ytd night i ate mum's noodles and old chang kee curry puff for dinner. i jus ate a lot of swt potatoes cus i promised mum i will eat.

tmr i hafta go get my stuff ready for sat but i got no time. argh. freaking time passes so fast when im not working. i hafta bathe now. i love bathing a lot. :)

btw. one last issue. xuan. i know im always always pangsehing you. so sorry that im always making u wait for one hr plus then ask u go home. im sorry. i cant help staying sometimes. i admit i prioritse work above friends. sorry k. but be glad im a responsible worker. hahahaha. :P

at 12:48 AM

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

this is the dress that i bought. and according to neo, im supposed to take on an elegant look instead of sth cute and young. but anws. here it is. patrick said i look 30 plus... :( MY FACE IS FUCKING FAT. DAMN. i look totally like my poly year 1. argh shit!!! shit shit shit!

i ate damn a lot today. finally for once, i nv take cab to work! yay! keep it up pat! lunch was my fav kuay teow with loads of chili. and dinner was mac. during debrief, the whole team ate a lot of orange pillows and choc wafer sticks! haha k la. its all me. and i also ate lou feng oreo... :( but all junks are compliments from me! :D

was in a good mood but tired. we did ot till almost 10 lor... tired tired. i hafta go bathe now... and then i can slp! yay!

at 11:28 PM

Monday, September 25, 2006

finally bathed. damn shiok. felt itchy all over. mus be due to the clothes i tried on today.

took half day to meet wen neo and char. :)

nice uncle andy sent me to mrt station in his mercs. cabbed down to airport from woodlands cus i was shopping and we didnt wana miss the flight. there goes 20 bucks. took cab to work this morn again!!!

wen's flight seemed to be delayed so we hanged arnd and ate polar chicken puff. nice. breakfast was only 9 pcs of oreo (peanut butter & choc!). the hour glass person jannie tay was sitting jus beside us. shes freaking rich. her bags are all lv and burberry and her son or bellboy or whoever is dressed up in burberry also. shirt... hat... hes like the walking logo la.

anw. wen finally arrived at abt 3!!! we smiled and waved happily and we went to eat crystal jade. there goes another 10 bucks. she went home at abt 5 with our presents and her luggages and me and neo trained down to town to meet char. shopped arnd for my dress and bote one 52-dollar dress, 7-dollar hairband and 30-dollar shirt. i love shopping when i got things to buy. :) charlala bote her gior tops at gior. haha. me and neo totally adore char and wen. char is perfect char and wen is perfect wen. my god. char looks perfect in everything. and wen IS perfect. hahaha.

ate yoshi aft everything. hahaha. i wasnt feeling v v hungry cus we koped super a lot of mooncake samples. we tried at airport then at ps. hahaha. we mus go taka mooncake fair someday. and...

oh
my
god.

pls buy shangrila snowskin green tea mooncake. its heaven. it is really heavenly heaven. damn freaking nice. go buy ok. 32 for 8 small pcs. u can buy the durian ones too. its totally pure fresh durians. my god.

i wana be in the law committee with neo! i wana be able to abroad for a long long period of time!

hai. on a sad sad sad note, i ate hokkien mee for supper.

at 11:45 PM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

i didnt know its 2am alrd. feeling not v good the whole day. duno why. resulting in me doing sth stupid again.

im so tired... mentally tired... nvm... looking forward to tmr's breakfast.

haven decided wat to do for my hair yet... hai.

3 more wks then we can all meet tgt once again.

i need shopping. i need clothes. but first, i need to shed off my fats. damn.

at 2:11 AM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

char seems to be ridiculously happy in her blog.

this is
so
weird.

well anw. ytd was satay club again. and i thot my lips looked kinda red this morn. it might be due to the amt of heaty food ive been munching on. as usual, i ate egg prata and took some mutabak from the plate on my left and many sticks of chicken satay and ketupak from the plate on my right and a few pcs of tauhu goreng from the plate farther in front. i love the curry of the prata. its so thick. :)

sherley (my manager) treated us to ice cream. it was so sweet. so sweet that i dislike choc ice cream for once. but the shop supplies sakae sushi their ice cream. buds. its called buds ice cream. i like. i like their cookie chip dough or sth. its nice.

the day before was also at the same place. wanted to indulge in the v delicious "taste of thailand". but it was kinda disappointing and gw cldnt get over it till the night ended. shan ordered so little and the meal looked so unsumptuous. this is sad. food is supposed to make pple happy!

shopping at supermarket followed aft. and obviously, miss junk-food got some junk. i got 2 big tubes of digestive biscuits. i got attracted to the container! its shaped like a pair of googles. nvm. i jus tink it is special so i bought the biscuits. v heavy. and i also bote my fav orange pillows, wh's fav ritz crackers and everyone's fav oreo (choc and peanuts). how lovely my pantry is now. feeling v pleased. i jus gona top up with julie's wheat crackers and julie's peanut butter crackers and you shall see pat no more. im gona camp in my office.

on a sad note, jus to annouce, im officially addicted to taking cab. this is shit. i took cab 5 times this wk. this is becoming so habitual. i mus stop. for the sake of my future. i mus. well, maybe i dont cus i dont haf a future. hai wateva it is. i shldnt be eating taking cab slping eating taking cab slping.

xuan my beloved told me not to cut my hair. sri my new colleague also. i wan my hair to be thick when it is being let down or tied up in a bun but i wan it to thin when it is being tied up in a pony tail. how...? and i dun really wana dye my hair bcus the uncle isnt good at dyeing hair. so maybe shld i jus trim? quick reply me back if not ur not my darling anymore!

if i manage to get my fat ass out of the hse ltr, i shall go shopping. and i doubt we will be meeting tonight. will we? nvm. let u guys stay at home and rest. and i can stop hanging out with guys jus for once.

im not unhappy with work anymore. in fact, i feel that i shld start learning inventory (sap). i know it will definitely be useful to me. i hafta start saving money cus i haf a goal = to further my studies. lisa told me abt our deputy director and i tink shes really a role model. shes only 31 or 32 and she is a dd now and she has 3 kids and shes earning big and doing well. i tink thats pretty young for a deputy director. i shall aim to be like her. as ive always said, success can only be measured on the day at your funeral. how much good pple talk abt during ur funeral shows how much your life was worth. if there arent many pple and there arent many topics abt u, well... you will nv know anw right. haha. conclusion: i still got abt 40-50 yrs more before i r.i.p. i hope i can be successful someday.

its weird how daxiong view me. i duno why the hell he tinks im doing well at work too. i was chatting with daxiong over the phone ytd and i was telling him i know my colleagues think well of me. lisa was saying that i got a lot of potential and i definitely can excel but the more they do that, the more stress i give myself. i expect a lot from myself even without their expectations of me. sometimes i wonder why this happens. i cant tell im doing well actually. im worried abt my stats abt a lot. and the more i grumble to pple, the more i tink im showing the lousy side of me, and the more i wonder why they tink im good. it feels good to know im being appreciated and im efficient and competent and all. but... nvm. no more buts. my hair how...

oh. i forgot all abt ttg. asked him out for supper at lor 5. if only it cld be like this forever, jus sitting arnd with the guys, listening to them talk abt army, listening to them talk abt work... and jus like this, we cld be friends for life.

i wana be vincent's fren. i wana be da xiong's fren too. but da xiong unlikely la. but ive really accepted the fact that pple do come and go all the time. its ok that they leave or i go. im ok. aft all, i wana be a career woman. and a career woman has no friends. haha. :)

off to eat my peanut butter biscuits. breakfast was so oily. hum chim peng and sweet potato porrigde with yummy char siew. i know the whole breakfast combi seems kinda weird. i ate them separately btw.

at 1:12 PM

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

wats the pt of not gg out for dinners when im eating so much at home also?

2 cups of milo is a must-have every evening. ate 2 pcs of oreo and one pc of sucky tiger biscuit from za. or wateva brand is that. 2 pcs of white bread from kuin meng. aft all these shit, i wasnt v hungry but i still had craving for nasi lemak so i bought one pkt. ate one banana aft that and also prawn crackers. am i fat or am i fat? i deserve all these shit la. i shld learn how to control. like how i control not gg out. haha this is easy actually. argh.

nice talking to francis. :)

i know im lagging and i did not meet up to ur standard. kinda disappointed also but at least i know there is time for me to change and to prove that im gd once again. i will be better than now. my work is really not up to standard. hai. hopefully, i can jus clear everything asap. and no more mistakes from now on. hai.

at 10:14 PM

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

hai philip owes his friend 22 bucks! god. patrick and my mum and me are taking turns to give him lectures. craziness. i duno why. according to my stupid bro, he said he and that friend always go 7-11 eat cup noodles. wat the hell. though i took cab ytd and today, i nv even spend so much lor.

jus saw sth... this is fuck. wahlau. bcus of u im always swearing. damn.

dinner was binge-time. ate 3 bread dipped in dad's chicken curry. v simple meal but v nice. some of mum's fried noodles. one banana to give me energy (fat). and some of the tasteless prawn crackers. oopsie. gotta buy tidbits for hansen.

vincent is so funny.

postponed my meeting with xuan from mon to wed then to thur. there goes our mooncakes... we are gona eat thai food... :(

busy busy day at work today. busy busy day at work ytd. so busy that i dun even recall wat i achieved. been taking v little queues nowadays. my report is v bad i guess... hai.

at 10:45 PM

Monday, September 18, 2006

"shld i dye my hair?"

i shld not. cus i shld save.

i rem i had a food blog. so anws. im 67kg. this is shit. holy holy shit shit shit.

having sorethroat. mus be due to the orange pillows. heaty stuff. i miss eating fruits. cus i love fruits. looking forward to eating fruits tmr! :)

dinner was at home. prawns, fish, veg... i love eating at home. actually, i miss eating at home.

lunch was kuay chap and my everytime-mus-eat grass jelly. full...

drank two big cups of milo when the clock struck 5. felt so hungry. but nbd had food to offer me. adrian had nth to give me either. boo. i shld get fruits. get apples and pears to put inside pantry. thats so healthy. haha. yes tmr im going shopping for fruits! whee.

i ate a lot of nasi bryani ytd. with loads of mutton mutton. they are yummy. and fatty. meepok was for breakfast. calbee hot and spicy was for supper. say no-no to heatiness. NO.

at 11:16 PM

Sunday, September 17, 2006

oh yah. i met karen. and mich. they are so pretty. mich said i look diff. well well, u guys shld know why.

haha. i totally made a fool out of myself. i screamed when karen called out my name. everyone arnd me and everyone arnd her got a shock. i screamed, shut my ears and closed my eyes. i duno. i was being retarded. retarded = myself.

history seems to repeating itself. im afraid to see more... to know more... to hear more... :(

at 3:47 PM

im tired of playing mind games. i duno how to handle things anymore. im v playful. i wan to haf fun but when there are consequences i hafta bear, i really duno wat to do... i jus wan things to remain like this. and hopefully, i might lose some weight too. hai.

ytd i ate meepok and all of hansen's junk. also ate 2 bananas. i was thinking if i shld get sth to clear my digestive system once every few days. i wana feel "light" and "clean".

dinner was curry fish head with patrick philip and tee siang. though i was with them for only half an hr, but i really wished i cld stay longer. i thot it wld be nice if i cld go buy mooncakes with them. its always so nice to haf dinner once in a while with ur fam and closed ones. then rushed to meet xuan's bro to get the present and gw and kun to go hida's hse.

i dun rem how much i ate at her bbq. but things werent as bad as i thot.

kun and gw wanted to watch movie. but then... hai nvm. long story. dun wana say too much either. so we went town to look for xuan. haha. prettier and prettier. this idiot. hida also la. i looked at her small waist... i really felt like killing myself.

so me and wh watched john tucker mus die. it was alright lor. was trying hard to keep myself awake. and aft the movie it was alrd 3am. hanged arnd till 6 (ate mac breakfast and drank mocha frap) before we took a cab home. slept at 7plus and woke up at 11. haha amazing hor. i feel like gg shopping actually. but im kinda tired and lazy.

jus farted. life stinks. i feel incapable of doing simple things and i feel that i shld chg a job. :(

at 3:33 PM

Saturday, September 16, 2006

i swear i will not go out with wh for dinner anymore.

heres why...

mon - kfc
tue - crystal jade
wed - chongpang nasi lemak
thur - delifrance
fri - seafood at jb

:( sad to lose a gd friend like him but then... even patrick said my butt has gotten bigger. obviously. look at my thunderlegs.

i was almost late for work ytd. i actually woke up at 6 plus bcus wh smsed me to bring passport. i was trying on my skirts and looking at the mirror, staring at my super tight skirts which were all qt loose in the past. jus staring and feeling depressed till abt 8.10 when i realised i had no choice but to take a cab.

hansen bought me 3 pkts of prawn crackers and tapioca chips. haha. love him. i know its v fat la. hai its the last round k. ltr i will be doing some cycling... at home. hai. supposed to go gym but my shoes are in the office. im v lazy to go back and take. moreover, i shldnt be gg out so often. i only meet my mum twice a week... on sat and sun. only meet my dad once in two wks... when im home early on either a thur or mon... i didnt even know patrick has started his driving lessons! until he smsed me ytd. met him and went home tgt. but we are still as close as ever. and philip is v tanned now. he swims every wk ma. my bros are so lovely.

was in a goody mood ytd. haha duno why. i like my colleagues. i like being with francis and everybody else.

i really miss doing projs and reports and presentations and i feel v incompetent that i cant complete things fast. i always need time to churn out sth really good. i cant take time constraints and stress. my layout and all... sigh... sucks. when lisa asked me to collate the survey within 10mins, i was like... jus mind blank. and in the end, i obviously produced sth shitty. hai nvm...

bbq ltr... been spending money like water. on food and cab as usual. i shld start saving. my pay is coming in a wk's time. i will not spend more than 300 i hope.

at 11:51 AM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

niang dou fu and pocky.

milo and twisties and cheezels. (i bought 6 pkts btw. the normal $1.20 size.)

chongpang nasi lemak and iced ma ti.

durians. durians. durians. durians. durians. durians. durians.

:(

to u, im like a criminal. ive sinned and im forever sinful. jus bcus i killed someone, it means i will kill another one again. cant pple change? u tink everyone is like u right? unrepentant. pls stop thinking ur the best. pls stop making use of others' oast mistakes to show ur better and others are lousier. u tink pple wana make those mistakes if they knew they were mistakes?

dont deny ur happy. when i see u someday on the streets, i will definitely go over and slap u. i am serious. pls dont try.

at 11:27 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

wahlau this is damn irritating. ur fucking the hell out of me. stop acting like ur the worst in this whole wide world and that ur so so pathetic and u cant have friends and u cant do anything. pls stop. i was jus being sincere and being truthful to u. luckily im now bullet proof. u can hurt me no more. i wont shed a single tear for wat u haf said and wat u think abt me. i will only get a little bit irritated and moody for the rest of my wk thats all.

this is shit. nvm. normal updates. wat i ate. shit i feel that im eating a lot a lot of carbo. which is v bad. currently, i tink im like 67 or sth? this is bad. ate rice for both lunches and kfc for ytd's dinner and crystal jade fried rice + fried prawn dumplings + one banana + 10pcs of biscuits for today's dinner. fuck.

eh btw helo helo. if u tink ur the worst and we all shld pity u, wat abt me right? gaining weight like nbd's business. pls stop being so idiot can. u were the one who made use of pple and im so sad that u still bother to make a difference in pple's lives when ur destroying their lives day by day... how i wish i cld warn them. u suck.

daphne was telling me that she has got 9 projs and presentations! omg i wan! haha i know it sounds crazy but i love the mad rush for projs and presentations and reports and blablabla. i love working in teams. i love doing research doing reports making presentations. i love the sense of relief and sense of achievement i get. i love all my grpmates. i love... loved... no more... :(

therefore...

i regret. i regret that im not able yet to achieve better than u.

i regret. i regret that i cant go into uni. bcus i know i can excel better than u do if i try.

though in life, i might not bcus im not as ambitious. but i might... right?

my life sucks. i wish i can end it. really really. getting v tired.

at 10:40 PM

Monday, September 11, 2006

feeling so full now. haha i ate like 60-80pcs of biscuits i bote from the funfair. the person claimed its imported and i love plain biscuits.

was alrd bloating with biscuits and patrick still got me calbee hot and spicy. god. im fat.

napped for 4h and more till almost 9. now cannot slp le. haha. gona be dead tmr. i shall try and slp aft im done with my songs.

at 1:08 AM

Sunday, September 10, 2006

met justin at yck then we went tgt to meet wh at bishan. everywhere was crowded so we went to the bus interchange macs for lunch. i ate fries and nuggets. luckily i didnt get a sundae. it wld be sinful. but anw, in the end we still went swensens to eat my frosted choc malt while waiting for the movie to start. the movie is funny. hahaha. "little man". go watch it if u need to destress.

aft the movie ended, we slacked arnd at a coffeeshop, sipping my iced lemon tea. i didnt expect me to be out for so long. told my mum i wld be back at 2pm but in the end i reached home at 3am! hahaha. heres why...

justin left to meet his friend to play ps. me and wh took trains on the opp side, heading for home. i msged him and said to meet for dinner next time cus he had a dinner date alrd. hahah unexpectedly, he called me and said hes available to go for dinner tgt. so we went chomp chomp. and i told him to take bus 74 which is wrong. we went to hougang instead lor. haha so we took cab.

we ate fried hokkien mee, stingray, sotong and orr lua. i thot the food werent v great. jus normal. but the stingray was really fresh. so nice. the hokkien mee was not bad too. poor wh suffered from indigestion. he ordered $5 worth of mee. how cld we finish?? crazy. though we shared the sugarcane drink, but i still felt v full. we really ordered too much. its crazy.

took bus to tpy and slacked there till 2plus am. poor him. always slacking arnd with me. i used to talk a lot abt "the feeling of being attached". as in btwn friends... but ended up... hai. nvm. history...

he was telling me to change physically and also mentally abt myself... in a v serious tone... and he was saying a lot of stuff which really jus... hmm... clarified all the misgivings i had abt him. i now look at him in a much clearer pic. so i can say i really appreciate him and i love vincent and everyone's presence in my life. :D

but the conclusion was, im really such a tomoy.

this morn was jus food and food and food. meepok, pear and one big pkt of biscuits which supposedly u cant get in spore. im gona bring it to work everyday. hai talking abt work... im dreading work. argh. :( cant wait for mj at hansen's hse.

i feel that i blog like wh = weihao, my cousin. ytd i saw charmaine, my cousin also. and her mum asked how come i didnt go say hi. i told char i felt v paiseh cus im v fat now. im still 65. this is shit.

feeling kinda tired now. shit. i tink of work again and i hate to work.

i jus donated 20bucks to rainbow org or sth. i duno. i was qt irritated with the fundraiser cus the weather was v hot. and i jus came home ma, sweating. had only jus settled down to read the breakup btwn jay and patty. then he was there talking to me abt donation... i duno la. i was qt irritated lor. i felt like i was being forced.

once again, my que dian. duno how to reject pple...

at 1:08 PM

zzz... shall blog tmr abt my happiness.

at 3:17 AM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

oh yah. forgot to blog abt thurs. xuan took a day leave to send her nana to airport. while me took half day leave. met her for mos burger and went town for shopping. didnt see anything we like so we didnt buy anything. had a sudden urge to pluck brows so yah... went to groom my bushy brows.

dinner was at swensens. i know i know. its boring. but nobody wanted to make a decision and swensens was jus below us. haha i ate chicken baked rice (again) and ate lots of nougats. many pple came leh. i was happy to see the guys all chatting happily. :) jimmy, gw, xiaokent, teckguan, wenyao, keegan, me, ailing and xuan. hopefully, we can meet up in such a big grp once every few mths. cus all in army le. i also wont expect much. poor kent fell aslp and i woke him up and forced him to meet up. haha who ask him go aussie for 11 days and leave us alone. both him and jim got no hair now le. hahaha. i wana meet them 2 wks ltr! quickly come out. haha.

wanted to go supper but then wy cldnt get his dad's car out. so gw sent us all home. so nice of him to send us home everytime. but i feel paiseh la. his petrol... i dun mind taking train also la seriously.

i jus dled ah du's new songs. suck.

hida's bday bbq is coming. we hafta get a present! hopefully that sucker isnt going.

at 12:52 PM

if i knew i wld be depressed, i wldnt haf eaten the hou dou bing. hai. :(

ytd was a moody moody day for me. maybe cus i felt a bit alone. but ltr on it was ok le... had dinner with johnathan yati and za. za pulled me along and i thot that it was good as well cus i cld get my bro's uniforms. we took cab and reached there at 830 but the shop was closed alrd. me and the shop arent fated leh. always nv get to buy my bro's uniforms. its the 2nd time alrd. so pls stop growing fat le ok philip.

both occassions, we ate satay club. i drank one coconut, one ice milk tea and ate one egg prata, a bit of tauhu goreng, a few chicken satays and ketupat! my fav. felt super full. and bladder was bursting. cldnt even type a sms to da xiong properly. haha. the 3 of them took cab but me took bus. v broke leh. i paid for the 2 mutabak and 2 egg prata ma. haha.

now still full also. supposed to go gym but i felt v lazy. now i also feel v lazy... feel like slping le. i ate nasi lemak and one hou dou bing. its the red bean ice cream. dad bote 4 boxes. which means abt 20 sticks or more? im not so sure of the qty but im sure hes mad.

gona meet justin wh serena and corrina ltr... lunch... since i pangseh them for gym. but i HOPE i wont be eating. cus im fat enough. depressing.

za was so pissed the past few days. hai i duno... i hope she doesnt hafta go. feel so sian. work is getting v sian also. im so afraid of appeals. im so afraid of taking queues. how i wish i can work in the office, not in this company though... and i can jus slack arnd and not eat so much... i find joy in food thats why im using it to destress i guess. only food can make me happy meh? hai. this is sad...

meifong is leaving also... but i wont make them stay la. i can only try and encourage them. things arent that bad aft all. it jus takes time. though im really feeling v sian over the changes in the company every now and then. the lead time for an appeal to be approved is taking so long. we pple facing the drivers get all the shit. do they know?

im also taking v little queues now. tink my performace for last wk is kinda bad. esp that im sitting at counter 1o. so far away from everyone... but under the cctv. :x

za seems to be unhappy with all our colleagues in one way or another. except me. i duno... luckily im not lisa's apple of the eye. nvm... long story... politics are so scary.

vincent. u mus stay ok. i wan u and wh to stay... but u guys haf commitments elsewhere le... so im jus crapping la.

shit. i feel really fat and ugly.

at 12:34 PM

Friday, September 08, 2006

feeling qt unhappy now. i duno... hai...

work has been qt sian... i duno... i feel busy everyday. there seems to be no time for myself. and now i haf an understudy. i haf no time for my own stuff and how am i supposed to guide her? she seems to be "nonchalant" also. i duno... im jus so tired of paperwork. i wana be a cashier for permanent. then i can dun do all the stupid paperwork.

im also moody cus im super fat. my legs are humongous... hai. i duno...

i wish i can take a long break and jus tink thru abt wat i wan... but we cant even take leave...

saw some pics on friendster... making me feeling more sian.

didnt even feel like replying wh jus now... sorry... im jus v tired... tired of everything...

randomly posted but im really not a happy girl. :(

at 12:10 AM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

i wish i knew more. stuff like... i duno. more active la. nvm...

felt v sick the whole day. but aft prata, i felt v ok le. dun feel like gg work though. will msg lisa tmr morn. im such a bad girl. wasnt this irresponsible. but i need a break la.

contemplating to go buffet with wh. im so fat. was 64 this morn and now im 65 again. damn the wanton mee i ate. the grass jelly i ate. the dog biscuits i ate. the lemon biscuits i ate. the tuna sandwich i ate. the egg sandwich i ate.

jere sent me home. haha so nice of him. went home instead of nrthpt. the rain was too heavy. but aft much hesitation, i went to get my phone aft all. luckily rain wasnt that heavy alrd. really regret getting this phone and i called big bear and wh to whine abt my stupid decision. big bear said its ok. bro said its ugly. gw said black is nicer. neo said i nv tink properly. xuan tried to comfort me. oh no. i feel like puking again. shit.

i tink the cute guy at the starhub shop finds me weird. haha i didnt wana msg him but im naturally like this. i tink he tinks im crazy. but nvm. i hardly care. i duno him anw.

lisa said two applicants kept looking at me. i nv even notice. and i dun really believe her. it doesnt sound like this kinda thing wld happen to me. but even if it did, it only shows that im fated to be taxi uncle's wife. urgh.

anws. 500 bucks on sth which i find it too big and not nice. well well... font is huge, phone is too wide for my hand... smsing is laggy. the rest of the functions seem complicated. i haf yet to try and duno when i will try either. i only sms and call pple actually.

transferring of songs is taking freaking long. sian. and i got no two pin plug to charge my phone. ridiculous la.

i wana go kelong!

at 12:25 AM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

feeling tired. felt tired the whole day actually.

went to get my fone. 500bucks leh. mum and bro asked me to get black. cus its 100bucks cheaper. but i was tinking, if i had gotten black, am i gona go home and keep tinking abt white. i tink i wld. so there you are, my white w810. i sorta let the cute guy at the shop decide for me. actually he didnt. haha and its not bcus hes cute. its bcus im fickle and i cant decide and i haf no urge to buy any fone. its jus that mummy isnt working and its rare she isnt so i felt i shld get it.

shall blog abt our conversation, as in me and the cute guy another time. v long and im tired.

jus another update. hai. i ate 6 dou sha bing today lor. then dinner was 2 hotdog buns and ice kachang. ltr met up with big bear and just for mac's hot fudge sundae and fries and nuggets. god. this is fattening. i also bote luo han guo. whenever i drink a mouthful, my face wld cringe. or wateva is that word. i cant be bothered. im tired.

hai im so tired and lazy. 4 msn windows are blinking. i tink im gona try and digest my food then say goodnite then slp le...

at 11:28 PM

im so slpy. the 3 dou sha bing were tasteless. i guess wateva i eat now are all v bland. k la. i mus really go take a nap then go out le. mum is really dragging time... i doubt she will be working ltr anw.

i took cab 4 times. i spent almost 50 jus on cabfare the past wk. this is shit.

at 2:55 PM

an update on wat ive ate for ytd and this morn. :(

ytd...
chicken rice
mee hoon kueh
bah kut teh
6 wheat crackers with milo
stingray
fried squids with chili
coconut drink
fried carrot cake
rochor tau huay

today... hasnt ended yet if u haf noticed the time...
nasi lemak
a lot a lot of hersheys kisses!
2 otah (burnt my throat)
2 glasses of orange peel fresh

i wana go shopping. i will be back v fast. but im tired. my nose is dropping.

haven decided wat fone to get yet... argh.

haha mummy bote dou sha bing!!!

at 1:06 PM

so tired. eyes closing. brain not functioning...

didnt go comex in the end cus me and patrick jus slacked all the way. anw there was concert on tv. so i wld haf loved to stay at home too. also chatted with xuan and elaine. got so much to tell xuan. haha miss u dear. :) we shall meet next wk.

on my way to amk to meet gw, justin called. asked me to go changi meet him damian and janice. kinda surprising. the combi is so unusual. out of the norm. i duno. aiya anw in the end there was some miscommunication and it also made me a bit irritated. nvm... dun wana go into too much details when actually also not much details la.

ate fried squids, stingray and carrot cake. qt nice ma. they complaint and said not nice. ok la. mai hiam. drank coconut. our contractor-cum-durian-seller eddie said coconut is cooling. i wan to get well! my nose is really peeling like... i duno... a snake? gross. anw its dropping! so dry and painful! :(

aft that went to eat the supposedly-famous rochor tau huay but then, i thot it was tasteless. which is good also cus i dun like swt stuff. finally, home swt home while damian justin and janice are chilling out at indochine. my pretty janice! haha. wld love to know more abt her but nvm. the two guys are happily getting to know her.

i feel inferior. im fat and ugly. im stupid. im talentless. im not adventurous. im lazy. im immature :(

at 2:43 AM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

i feel so selfish. i still haf not learnt to give up my own happiness to provide happiness for others. ever since i got closer to A, i neglected B and now i duno wat to do. i rather be with A than with B actually but... B needs help. how...? :(

feel a bit unhappy suddenly bcus of this. i know if i ask D for advice. he will choose to be with B bcus B needs help. anw i know A wont leave me la... i duno... though it may seem temporary, but i... i duno...

wats happening to my frens? actually i was closer to B in the past cus i cld relate and i was upset too. sad pple always click better right? then now, im better alrd bcus of A and C and many other pple and reasons. shld i go help B?

god. wat am i saying? shld? i mus. if im her fren, i mus.

hai. duno la. shall hope mum isnt working then we can go out. gg out to ask her now.

at 4:36 PM

my nose is peeling and its painful. all bcus of the every-min nose-rubbing and nose-blowing. the beautex tissue sux. the kleenex is so soft. my nose... :( but throat is so much better than ytd. i did drink 3 glasses of water today k.

woke up at 10 and rushed to cwp. haha. then came home and lectured philip. hai. feeling a bit slpy...

might be gg comex ltr. and supper aft that. haven been missing kent. quickly come back!!! we mus meet next wk ok. i will miss u when u go army also. haha. quick quick.

shall read one more chap of my book. its nice!

if there werent cracks, good friends will nv become friends.

if there wasnt a start, good friends will nv become strangers.

good friends shall always remain as good friends. cus i will love them always. :)

haha its so random that nobody understands me i guess... but all i wana say is that, i jus wished, nobody has to leave. then again, nobody will stay jus bcus of me.

it was u who made me realised everyone is selfish. including myself. but this little selfishness, we either keep it to ourselves and sigh, or say it out and be selfish. well, im both.

glad ml is ok now. i owe so many pple money! justin - 5bucks. serena - 7bucks. ml - duno how many bucks. haha.

oh yah. i drank some 24-type-of-herbs-mixed-tgt tea ytd. supposed to be good for my throat. was ok ma. it wasnt as bitter as wat wh claimed. wh is really a... uh... jus-loves-delicious-stuff-only person.

at 2:10 PM

was sick ever since ytd. wanted to take half day but in the end. ml took urgent leave. and work was v busy. and i didnt wana disappoint everyone so i decided to stay.

met many nice drivers today. =) mr yeo sent us to lunch. mr tan sent me home! (i jus reached home not long ago btw.) ahaha so nice. though i gave him 20 bucks la. so qiao. hafta go buy 4d le. 4435 i tink. or 4453. i duno. haha.

ytd night was totally late for sushi with the guys and ladies. felt unwell so i didnt talk much or eat much. i ate a lot anw. char bote super nice awfully choc banana cake! i ate 2 slices!

then today, dinner was durians at balestier. owe ml for cab fare. owe lisa/char for durians. we spent 100over on durians lor. ate ba lu ku and rambutans also. ltr was mutabak and teh tarik. felt that night was still young so i asked wh watch movie with me. the show is not bad. really let me know how posh paris is. and the pple are so trendy and fashionable. i love their winter clothings. so nice. meryl streep acts really well in that show. as in, shes jus like a fashion designer. anne hathaway has really HUGE breasts. her legs are so skinny though.

talking abt being fat, even lisa asked me to control le. this is how serious things are. aft movie, we went to eat wanton... then now im home lor. in the cab of the re-joined relief driver mr tan, he kept saying im so young and im a dip holder and i shldnt stay there. he also said i surely got many admirers. haha wat crap. haha he didnt know who i was until i told him. he even rems my full name.

anws. im gona take a panadol. maybe i will skip supper tmr cus im fat. :(

time for random thots:

everyone is so worried abt ml.

i shldnt haf gotten irritated over km. i shldnt feel over confident over cashiering. i shldnt feel threatened by newcomers. i duno...

at 3:40 AM