oh, love's gonna get you down.

Monday, March 31, 2008

hi there! sigh. you wont believe me if i blog abt me being friendless in sch right? but its totally not a lie or an exaggeration lor.

sch on fri was not that bad cus its only 3hrs. pangsehed py for dinner and the guys for supper. i actually pangsehed twice on one night! cool. haha. if you know me, you shld know i rarely have the courage to pangseh my friends. unless i can find a valid excuse.

sat was alright. not as bad as i thought it would be. i ate a cheese sandwich, rushed to sch, wasnt late, which is very good cus i heard my one and only friend say that he is a terror. hes quite a terrorist indeed but i like him. i like the way he teaches, the examples he provides and the way he makes us think. i like knowing what we are studying and the meaning behind things. i dont like the eqns though. i daydreamed when he talked abt those weird plus minus signs. gross.

sun was a really bad day for our class. as if he wasnt scary enough the day before. he scolded us many times today and he was really angry. i think we are really useless and brainless. and i think our lecturers are not as good as i thought they were lor. damn lousy la. after the two lectures conducted by the uol examiner, i feel like i didnt learn anything the past 8 months from the local teachers though i NEVER skip econs cus i know i need to be there to learn sth. he asked if we are humans, if we are insane, or are we just cards. er. he said a lot of things la. he said we are hopeless and typical spore students... we memorise and vomit out during the exams. we dont think. we only copy and expect the same few qns to appear again so we only rely on past year exam qns. he has travelled to so many places but we are the worst students he ever saw. whatever he said is all true. anyways. lets hope i will be better. though ive been watching tv since i came home.

on both days, i lunched alone. damn sian. and if i wanna sms, i must go out of the lect hall cus theres no reception. they are so clever right. dont even let us sms. sigh. its my 2nd hobby lor. first is movies. which reminds me, i pangsehed xuan ytd. she wanted vantage pt. sorry!

if i leave the hall during lunch break to sms or sth, i see happy grps of pple making merry drinking cherry eating berry which is really v depressing. me? i eat roti roti roti lor. both days i had bread with cheese and peelfresh orange for breakfast. lunches were bread also. worse than breakfast right cus theres no drink. hai. dinners were the best! homecooked food on sat which was really good. and dinner today was quite overwhelming. me and xuan ate at sakae cus i was lazy to go anywhere better and further so we settled for somewhere at northpt. we spent 40over dollars lor! i waited for 50mins for her arrival and while waiting, i was super hungry so i bought swee's potato chips to pass time and fill my stomach.

we ordered: 4 plates of sushi, 1 plate tako, 1 fried tofu, 1 croquette, 1 unagi bento, 1 tempura ice cream, 1 i-forgot-the-name but its golden mushrooms wrapped in beef. idiot xuan ate only one out of 4 pieces. poor me had to stuff myself with the beef+golden mushrooms and unagi. :( when i came home, i ate a banana and 4 bowls of herbal chicken soup. v nice lor. my dad made it. hmm... he seems troubled nowadays... sigh. i think i gained abt 1-2kg. i hope i shed it soon. but how? ive been munching on a lot of fishball crackers and POCKY. omg. pocky is my all-time fav snack. i always eat in sch. i always eat in the train, on my way home. too hungry le la. the prices for pocky vary a lot in diff places. sim sells for $1.40. clementi bus stop sells for $1.60. clementi mrt station sells for $1.20. so crazy lor the $1.60 one. boycott you! and every min in class, i wld be eating either fruittips or lakerol. the price of fruittips has gone up significantly. i rem they were $1.20. they are $1.60 now! upgrade. woah. but still, they are my fav sweets la. esp lakerol lemon. must rem ok. haha. they are my v unhealthy friends but v good helpers.

1. keep me awake
2. keep my breath fresh since i dont talk at all during class (nobody to talk to ma)
3. keep my tummy full (super paiseh cus on sat, my tummy was screaming for food)

anws. that chicken rice day, me and kun went popular and you know what? i saw super cheap photo albums for $2.15! i mentioned before i carried back 4 albums and 1 stack of A4 paper from town right? SUPER heavy lor. the album was $3.20 each. i thought it was really cheap so i bought 4 though they are quite ugly. the popular ones are so pretty young and cute. today, i was hanging arnd at popular since i had 5omins before xuan came, i saw the photo album section selling the albums which i bought from town at $2.60! STUPID BIG BOOKSHOP. i bought my albums from a place called "stupid big bookshop". k la. no "stupid" la. its not abt the money lor... its disappointment and stupidity and a lot of other mixed feelings. i knew it. orchard stuff are always exp.

and on sat, i kept dropping the toilet rolls with the toilet paper (of cus), into the toilet bowls. i felt so idiot lor. firstly, i dropped while cleaning the seat so i cldnt use the toilet anymore since i had no toilet paper for ahem. secondly, the next person cant use also. so paiseh. twice, i picked the roll up and went out of the cubicle and went into another. so stupid right.

go read xiaxue's blog k. makes me feel like going langkawi. shldnt be exp. but im still scared of ghosts. but the free buffet really tempts me leh. hahaha. and the tanning maybe.

im so busy la. next sun is the only day i have no sch!

at 12:46 AM

Thursday, March 27, 2008

i watched empress and the warriors today. hmm... its skippable la. but i like leon lai in the show. hes so clever and handsome lor. hahaha. other than this show, i think ive never liked him. he looks quite gay. and kelly chen really cant act. or maybe its her canto accent. i dont know. i dont care also. watching movies now is damn exp. its my only hobby lor. weekend is 10.50 and just now we paid 8.50 each. siao right. sigh everything is so exp now. i really shld be more thrifty.

kun asked me out suddenly so we went to eat chicken rice at yishun. supposedly very yummy one lor but i dont like. i think its not nice. next time shld eat near my place. that stall is really good.

i didnt study again. sigh. how many days alrd ar? i was trying one integration qn and then it was time to meet them. gw and jimmy were late so i ate mac choco cone while waiting. so fat. i just finished 1 pkt of calbee hot&spicy. so nice. :) but er. wo tai fei le. oh char. you wanna go dimsum soon? i miss you! but i dont wanna msg you cus i know you're still angry with me bcus of the tv. and i know you'll say im mad after you read the prev sentence.

ytd's sch was ok despite the fact that i was alone and it was a 7-hr long lecture with 3 mini breaks in btwn. i tried super hard not to fall aslp cus it was by the examiner from london and its v scary. she would stop and stare at anyone who left the room for whatever reason. and i woke up late lor so i took cab. 15 bucks. quite cheap. the other time was 19! since i was alone, i didnt go for lunch and i ate my bread. so sad right. i brought 2 bread to sch.

went kino after sch to look for my socio text. i cldnt find. so sad. i went popular just now but cldnt find too. so sian. met up with xuan after slacking at kino and we went home tgt. finally had dinner at home. it was yummy curry rice and satay and pineapples. :)

i dont wanna eat bread tmr. i ate bread ytd, today and lian rong bao also. im sick of breadish stuff. the papers said the price of rice will increase by 60%!!! i told my mum to cook potatoes everyday and in a year, i'll become ms moses lim lor. :(

at 10:59 PM

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

i felt so hurt last night.

before i left her house, she... she said a lot of hurtful words. i almost cried. on our way back home, she assured me she was joking. though i could feel and hear the sarcasm in every sentence, i trusted her. i trusted that she doesnt hate me for making her watch tv and spoil her eyes.

but...

charneozers. says (11:45 PM):
char told me u've been forcing her to watch tv shows non stop

sigh. so that's why friends are for? i'm gonna blast that song and slp and never wake up. she better not sms me anymore. i will NOT reply.

at 11:54 PM

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

im blogging using char's macbook now. damn nice. i think i will buy mac if my current laptop spoils. but er. hopefully it doesnt spoil la. my stuff is all inside.

ive been out since 1pm ytd! its been 32hrs!! was late for 3hrs in meeting gw for studying at amk mac. char joined us later and we watched horton. v nice! we like. :) went back home and watched tv and youtube till 6 this morn. haha we both love ellen and show luo! they are both v cute lor. im turning char from a wii addict to a tv addict. but if we had money, i guess we would become online shopping addicts. good that we got no money lor.

ordered 8 pcs of kfc chicken, 1 large whipped and 1 large coleslaw for lunch cus its super tuesday. crazy right. and i totally forgot i ate kfc few days back and i even said i wont eat kfc anymore. oh noes. sigh.

haven shitted for 4 days lor. k la. 3 maybe? if tmr i dont shit, im gonna see a doc. ate a lot of stuff these few days. so sad. sun, i woke up at 7am for city harvest and only went home at 11pm! i think im v naughty lor. getting so lazy. haven studied since last week. v bad. :( we went airport for ajisen ramen and east coast for a teabreak drink and kent's hse for mj and chongpang for nasi lemak. so unhealthy right.

ytd i ate char's popo's yummy wings, beehoon with roasted duck meat, mac's hot fudge sundae, pear, watermelon, apple gummies, fishball crackers, jack&jill potato chips, fried mushrooms, a lot of mac&cheese, cadbury fruit&nut choc and i forgot what else. so scary hor.

and i just ate whipped potato and a lot of our not-nice cookies. we baked like 100 cookies lor. i hope we can make nicer ones. sigh.

at 8:57 PM

Saturday, March 22, 2008

i dont think i'll ever eat shrooms burger again. i just ate kfc! damn bao. the cheese fries were yummy la but i think i'll still put kfc in the list of food i dont wanna eat unless left with no choice. when im outside, i usually choose not to eat the following (if possible):

-burger king
-mac

hahaha theres only two? i dont know leh. i thought i wld have a long list. paiseh paiseh. i'll make it longer. now got 3 alrd. got kfc!

last time got pastamania, yoshinoya, ajisen ramen and subway la. now im ok with all. :)

actually, the main reason for "banning" fastfood is bcus i dont like the softdrinks which come with the meals. i know i can change la. i can take milo but its damn bao. i like mac's orange juice too but so exp! moreover (sounds so pro hor haha), if i change the drink, i think with the same price, i can eat nicer food lor. the meal comes with the drink so its more worth it ma. and if i order without the drink, its kinda silly right? therefore, lets try to go places with green tea ok! i love green tea. :D

at 12:59 PM

the food i ate today are super repetitive. quite sad but still ok la...

breakfast - lian rong bao x 2 !
lunch - duck rice with one hardboiled egg and baguette.
teabreak - choc. hahaha. i got some chocs for easter. so swt of my bro's gf. and more baguette.
dinner - sweet potato porridge. its really my fav meal of the day lor. and a duck drumstick.
snacks while watching tv - watermelon, cookies and eggtart.
supper - baguette and eggtart.

so boring right. but the bread and egg tarts make me super full. i feel so sick now. i will never stop eating bread though. me and char love bread! :)

at 12:16 AM

Friday, March 21, 2008

do you know i REALLY REALLY REALLY (x 100000) HATE MATHS? im going crazy. im quite worried i will fail if i continue at this rate.

i fall aslp after reading the qn each time lor. i dont understand a single shit. i hate log. i hate all those stupid pple who came up with log. cos. sin. tan. ln. e. whatever la. i hate you! today i took abt 5 naps and completed only less than 5 qns. im so energized now that i feel v pekchek cus i got nth to do and i dont really feel like going out and if i do, nobody is free. k la i think xuan is free. my bro and even my mum who stays home 360 days out of 365 is not at home! wo de tian ah. AHHH! im going mad. i did ask philip out to watch movie actually but er. he wanna watch tv. k la. me too. i dont wanna miss it. i cant wait for 8pm to come cus thats when ch55 is showing nice tv shows.

and last night i ate ba chor mee at 1am which made me overly full that i cldnt slp though i was feeling really tired aft semi-pro, the silly show. will ferrell is really v silly lor. hahaha wy kept saying he's very ugly. so bad. hahaha i dont think he's ugly la. ok whatever. i was talking abt maths. MATHS SUCK!

i ate a lot of bread today and biscuits these days. bad girl bad girl. argh bye!

at 6:28 PM

Thursday, March 20, 2008

To Ella Chen

Hi Ella Chen

My name‘s Golf. I‘m Thailand. Man 20 Age.

Hi Ella . I want to know you And i am want your friend.
Ella ..... Am i beg your friend ? a Friend.
i not your Fanclub.i be beyond caring Fanclub. But i care your felling.
i see you in TV in my home in Thailand.First Time i see you in Hana Kimi in My TV in Thailand i am also want you friend.
I will post post post and post Every Day to you. As long as you come on answer me.
Answer me .... about friend. i am your friend...... ?

i can‘t read + speak Chinese.Please you use english to me.

Or sent to My E-mail ( i am want your friend ) a Friend
sirinonthanavet@hotmail.com

this guy is mad! he posted a few times the above same msg in S.H.E's forum. crazy lor. hahah. S.H.E do read the forums cus they reply sometimes. anw. this guy is so weird. hahaha.

at 1:13 AM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

sigh. i just realised that my yahoo mails have all been deleted. hmm... maybe the things inside are not impt stuff but... it was the email a/c i was using throughout my poly life.

hai nvm. i shall stop acting sentimental. i shall tell myself, its ok. there must be nth impt inside. whats impt is gone anw. so whats more with this yahoo a/c. im not gonna activate it either. i just deleted the whole contact book. i want it to be clean and green.

i have also finally cleared all my mails in my gmail a/c. it had 900 emails lor. my yahoo had more than 2000! crazy right. its really very impt to choose a correct email add... its so troublesome to change. you gotta create another a/c lor. i wished they allow us to change the name only.

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woohoo. i just merged both my gmail and hotmail! i can check both in one window. cool.

at 2:58 PM

the filmfest got a lot of interesting things leh. and its really cheap. there are films abt mecca. interesting right. and abt mongolian life. theres korean stuff. theres china stuff. if only i had a car. and if i earn like 5k per month, i'll watch plays too! if time permits. cus earning 5k means, you'll be busy doing 5k worth of work what. there's no free lunch in this world ok. and i totally understand. even if there is, i will feel bad. unless its the norm. then i shld be used to it. whatever im saying is not impt. i wanna watch women love women. it was mentioned in the straits times. cool. and the tickets are so cheap!

omg. the tickets are all snapped up! all these filmfest crazy fans.

btw. neozers! i updated my playlist! the first song is for you. pls be good k. oh, we miss you, you know...
the second song is definitely for you la. hahaha. you're forever my 第一时间!

ytd was spent slping, eating and watching tv with philip. so useless right. philip said our common topic is tv shows. which is really true. maybe i shld go hang out with him and his friends at the nearby playground lor. hmm... we can talk abt the... swing?

at 1:56 PM

Monday, March 17, 2008

freaking tv show. its all about food food food! and lil miss potato couch munch munch munch. im blogging now, in the midst of my tv show. haha cus they are showing stupid waste-time adverts. haven touched my books for 2-3 days. oh no. i better start later. i think i will la. :)

i was munching on fruit tarts! yummy! sweet potato! yummy! grapes! yummy! cornflake & raisin cookies! yummy! and i finally got my meiji plain crackers! YUMMY! its a rare item i tell you. took me so long. hey isnt this some mel c's song? to find it. and of cus homecooked food was fantabulous. :)

at 12:17 AM

Sunday, March 16, 2008

i just came back from the buffet and im so full. i hope i shit later. :(

i ate angkukueh! if you dont know whats that, go find out k cus its my fav kueh! i like a lot of chinese kueh and similar but i dont like lor mai gai and siew mai and jiu cen gao. the 9 level kueh. the super colorful one. still dont know? go google pls.

and i ate... mee hoon kueh. this is not from the buffet la obviously. this was my brunch. it was too full a meal lor. my dad made me finish cus he said it was getting cold. :( but i know its wei le wo hao. wei le wo pang (fat). i also ate... fried youtiao, fried popiah, fried fish... yea they have a lot of fried food. i think children love fried food and there were many kids la. sea coconut which was very sweet. i dont have sweet tooth. choc is for killing boredom.

im gonna slp now. bye!

at 4:16 PM

hi! im home from mind cafe. it was a super last min decision. decided at 10.30 and met them an hr ltr at prinsep. so fast hor. kent and gw suggested my place cus its free! but i'll still be home what. the whole day was spent slping. feel so useless and bored. then again, i think next time shld come my place la cus we played taboo and im the boss. i have lor and i wldnt need to spend a single cent! i spent so much there. 26 :( but i ate a lot la. oopsie. lets see what i ate today...

- minced meat meepok
- cadbury choc (haha i eat this everyday hor)
- grapes
- 1 apple
- fried rice
- sweet potato leaves with sambal
- cornflake and raisin cookies
- black pepper prawn crackers
- sour cream potato chips
- lemon honey
- peach cooler
- a mini pizza
- gyozas
(edit: - POTATO WEDGES)

aiyo. so much of heaty stuff. cannot. no good no good. tmr got buffet somemore. gosh.

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neozers called me just now and bcus my inbox did not have enough space, i had to delete a few msgs from a year ago. i hesitated a while but deleted anyway. not bad huh. i guess she "inspired" me. is inspire the word? hmm... it takes time. be patient. if we have the will, we definitely can do it. :)

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edit: yangzongwei is going suntec at 1pm on 29th march! omg i cant wait and i want to hear him sing live! but guess what? i just checked my timetable and I HAVE REVISION LECTURE ON THAT DAY! damn sian. its from 10-5pm lor. SIGH. obviously school is more impt la. boo.

at 3:08 AM

Saturday, March 15, 2008

morning! i just got home from "rule no. one". i dont wanna blog abt it now. maybe ltr? when i wake up. its just very scary la. i cant imagine if char had watched too. its so urgh. we screamed for both waterhorse and spiderwick. yes yes. very loser right. but spiderwick was really quite scary. its like a children thriller or sth. maybe scary is not the word. exciting? hmm...

hai. not slpy yet. though i slept at 7.30am ytd morn! crazy right. i cldnt slp. i dont know why. but now i cant slp cus i think im feeling too full from the nachos. i ate a lot today lor! omg. chicken rice for lunch. cadbury choc again. mos burger for teabreak? imperial treasure for dinner. hello panda for supper. and nachos with yummy cheese!

was so late in meeting char. stupid eyelashes and stupid dilly-dallying. so glad shes Perfect so she wasnt unhappy or anything. she looked really pretty today. she wore a pink lacoste shirt with a super short skirt and her new polkadot bag which is really cute. her aldo shades made her look so glamorous. like some celebrity being followed by the papparazi. and yay yay!! we finally got her agnes b wallet! i love it. hahah we saw a lot of things that match her cute wallet lor but she refuses to heed my advice. if only it was 200 lor. then i wld get it too. though sue and gang said it looks normal. but im not affected by their comments at all. hahaha. love is blind dear.
we slacked arnd town while waiting for the isetan pple to transfer the wallet to the taka pple. woah. 2hrs lor. they said they were understaffed. but at least we dont hafta make a 3rd trip. actually i think we made many trips to town to check out the wallet. long story la. im quite lazy to tell and i think nobody is interested. er k la i cant slp anw, i shall summarise.

the taka wallet has some blemishes and since we wanted to use our take voucher, we requested for them to transfer the isetan wallet without blemishes to taka. the end.

bade charrypoo farewell and met sue py serene for dinner. it was 14bucks each. i think we shld order the la mian next time. much much cheaper. nth to do so walked arnd town before heading home for mj! i didnt win but it didnt dampen my mood. it was a very fast game. compared to the 5hr one we had with vann. this was abt 2+ hrs. i lost 5 bucks and sue lost 7. everyone was losing initially cus serene's luck was damn damn good. my tiles were really bad. i always get lousy flowers or no flowers or whatever la. then finally! i won 4 tai zi mo. :) so why did i lose in the end? cus py 5 tai in the bei feng and i was the one who threw the tile! :(

after mj, while waiting for wy to come pick us up for movie, we watched tv and talked a lot. i hope everyone was happy. but i think only me and py were happy lor cus we kept talking. haha. hi vanessa! if you're reading this, i wanna tell you that your best friend serene can be your ur shifu in mahjong and we finally met up again on a friday!

ok. im gonna slp soon. i hope i shit tmr. my tummy feels really bloated. sigh. i think i spent a lot of money again. today i got a shirt and my hair conditioner. like finally. hopefully, my hair wont be so dry anymore. i need to save money!

at 5:24 AM

Friday, March 14, 2008

im so hungry and i cant slp and omg. the baby is still crying. look at my tagboard. i just ate two prawns. brunch was nasi lemak and teabreak was kfc. dinner was rice dumpling, a few pineapple tarts and a bit of clam chowder at char's. good. its so little compared to ytd (wed). it was duck rice for lunch, sweet potato porridge with braised duck for dinner. in btwn, theres swee's potato chips and cadbury. supper was tauhuay with soonkueh and otah. sigh i shldnt have mentioned all the food. i feel even hungrier.

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i was saying i always follow my heart. i think i always follow my heart and not my mind? what is following my heart? and mind? aiyo. i dont know. they seem the same. but xh used to say that i always follow my heart and many times, i make unrealistic or irrational decisions. i think she said i was selfish? i forgot.

one common scenario which always happens to me. well, food is my life.

my mind tells me that i wanna eat kenny rogers.
my friend says that he wanna eat charsiew rice and i dont really like eating at foodcourts.
but my heart tells my mind that its ok. its ok... foodcourt is nice also. dont act atas. you can have the chicken soup next time ma. though my mind will say, huh. sian. once in a while get to pass by kenny rogers and i cant even go in? then my heart will say, its just a craving. it'll be over soon.

and the outcome of the battle btwn my mind and my heart will be determined by only one factor. or maybe i think thats the main one.

-who the person is.

if its xuan, i'll let her decide first and if she cant, i'll tell her what i wanna eat. if she shows a reluctant expression, i will suggest a few others. we will discuss la actually.
if its gw, he usually maintains an "anything" attitude and doesnt suggest anything, i'll usually decide. which is really good cus i can eat anything i want. but he does suggest if i ask.
if its char, shes quite anything la so i dont rem any battle btwn mind and heart. omg. so good. cus she gives in to me all the time la.
if its kent, i'll let him decide.
if its my family, they are very open to suggestions cus everyone just wants everyone to be happy. i just realised. i never thought abt it. i mean, my mum is always great cus she really does a lot to please everyone. and at the end of the day, im very sure shes not exactly very happy. patrick also wants everyone to be happy. philip too. except me. im more selfish. i think i exploit pple if i know i can.

i asked gw and wy abt humans being selfish. all humans are. they said no. really? i think i am. but i think they are not la. wy is quite giving. gw too. they are pretty easy-going also. hmm... angels, are they?

so maybe, following my heart is to agree with my friends. following my mind is to be selfish. not exactly selfish. i mean, i guess my friends will consider my suggestions and thoughts. but i dont know why the hell am i always trying to be nice. gw is right. i try to be nice but i complain all the time. what am i doing? and i know my brain is rusty cus i say really stupid things without thinking. one best way = shut up pat. this kinda out of point but yah.

cool (my new fav word). i was never so frank with my feelings in poly times or sec sch times. i dont think i had a mind of my own. but then again, so what if im frank. i know my bad points so i shld change right. but here i am, feeling so proud and annoucing to the whole world.

ok! im gonna do one more qn and see if i can slp. btw. dont worry dear, if you are. cus this entry was blogged due to my inability to slp. im super ok la. cus i know my friends and family wont bear grudges. even if they do, its all in my mind. omg. im being so positive suddenly. it must be the sleepybug.

at 5:13 AM

Thursday, March 13, 2008

i usually go in the directions of my friends and my family always thinks my friends form a major part of my life and they see me more than my family does. im not sure if its true but i know, i always try to follow my heart. i stay home when i feel like staying home and i go out when i feel like going out. i dont hate staying home. (edit: i just dont really know/wanna reject my friends when they ask me out unless i really really cant make it. and i always go out cus i try to maintain regular contact with my friends though maybe some pple think its a bit too much to meet my friends at least once every week. ok la. once two weeks. which reminds me, my sms is 1500 every mth. i shld cut down lor. yes. i shld cut down. i shall not msg pple rubbish.)

i may not be able to eat what i crave for dinner sometimes cus somebody else wants sth else, but its quite minor. or maybe i hafta watch a horror movie when i know i'll be so scared but its ok too. i dont mind. dont mind and dont want are very different right? as long as my friends dont think badly of me. i guess i care a lot abt what other pple think of me and this is why i always try to agree and follow. i was telling gw and wy abt my life in sec sch and wy asked if i were happy. i dont remember actually.

tonight, i made two of my really good friends angry and i felt bad. but seriously, when i got home, i felt really comfortable. its not that i finally can bathe or sit down or slp or whatever, its just that i dont have the guilty feeling anymore. last night, i went out for supper with gw and wy and i sat in the car, thinking of many reasons to convince myself that its ok to go out. though i know, my parents dont care whether or not i go out, but i... its just a very weird feeling which makes me feel really really bad if i go out. this morn, i came home at 5. i made a point to wake up earlier to vaccum and stuff. i know they dont care cus its what i shld do, by right. but by doing all these, i feel much better.

sigh sorry gw and xuan. i think they were really angry and i think no one in class has seen their angry faces before. only im capable of doing this. theres nth i can do though. i wished i had a car and i wished i knew how to drive. i told xuan i cld cab there but i think its also very weird la. i guess i sacrificed friendships to make myself "feel better"?

each supper just adds to the amount of "debts" that i owe cus pple gotta send me home and taking cab is really exp. i dont know. maybe pple dont mind but someday, pple will just say i make use of them. i mean, we'll nv know right?

(edit: oh. just thought of sth. hai. if we had went out ytd, the chat wldnt have turned into a heated argument and char wld have gotten her wallet. today we went town and isetan was having a private sale. we gotta go back tmr to check.

hai. i was telling kun year 2008 is really a bad year for me. i quarrelled with my parents 3 or 4 times and each time, i know its mostly my fault. anws. everything thats happening just tells me what xh said abt me is all true. and philip my super sensible bro told me, "jie. if mum thinks ur lousy, then u shld change lor.")

at 10:27 PM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

its 3 and i just came home! though its nth unusual but today had been rather eventful.

first, it was pouring the whole day and we were late for step up so we had to watch waterhorse which was unexpectedly touching and sad but scary too. haha we were screaming lor. it was really enjoyable and i think u shld watch! go watch k.

second, i ate kenny rogers! the chicken soup was damn yummy and i love mac&cheese and corn niblets. yummay. :)

third, i bought a pair of cute shorts. hahaha. and sadly, my miss selfridge dress is gone! but good la. saves 133bucks.

forth, i finally tried the azabu sabo's ice cream. choc flavour. i dont think i'll ever eat that again cus...

fifth, i tried char&kerly's choc ice cream! yummy! tasted like milo cus of the thick cocoa but was nicer than my 4dollar azabu sabo la.

sixth, im jealous of kerly's new sony cam. its so good! you can make your photos become neoprintish. you can add stars, moon, sun, write stuff and aiya. a lot la. theres a stylus pen. so cool right. and its really cheap. 430 with leather strap and leather case which she gave away, 4gb card... and what else ar? i forgot le... haha but anws. sony is really cool. canon is boring but dependable? i dont know. thats the only thing i can think of. :( cus i bought canon!

seventh, kerly said i was being very critical and i insult char all the time. do i? im so super nice. my friends all call me lil miss nice. hahaha.

eighth, i actually went kerly's hse! omg omg! shes my ex-idol! why did i stop being her fan is bcus char told kerly i idolise her and its damn paiseh. hahaha.

ninth, i met kerly's friend too. ive been meeting a few new pple these few mths... but... i wont see them again la actually. like, sean and jiayang...

tenth, i finally touched char&kerly's rabbit! i nv did i think. yay! a step towards... towards... towards lor.

eleventh, i did my forthnightly manicure today! its free!! cus char did it. haha the color is super nice. im gonna ask char to help me get. pls? thank you. :)

k la im a bit tired thats why im babbling crap. are these even considered as events? anw. it was a happy day with charrypoo. :) though we both spent almost 100 day. kinda crazy cus we bought nth much. but we ate so much! potato chips. ice cream. woah. i better shit tmr. otherwise, i dont think i'll go out on thurs. but i bought the huge cadbury choc and i think i'll eat tmr. choc is so heaty right. oh no. pat cant shit again lor. shit man.

haha gw is a waterhorse!

h says (3:32 AM):
i make myself pregnant

a waterhorse gets pregnant by itself without making love or anything. kinda weird but yah. gw is a waterhorse!!

at 3:44 AM

Monday, March 10, 2008

im so loser lor. i said in the prev post that im gonna save money right. haha me and philip ordered pizza for lunch again! yummy. :) philip and i spent half the day tgt playing psp and doing research on his mini-proj.

i think im super useless. hes supposed to do a research on someone famous. we thought of albert einstein, nelson mandela, elizabeth choy... pple that his classmates would know. in the end, we settled on lee kuan yew cus we think we shld let the class know more abt him ma. after doing a few ppt slides, we realised theres too much to write abt him and we gave up. haha i gave up actually. so we did on... MAS SELAMAT. hahaha sigh im so loser.

at 11:35 PM

im feeling so hungry now. and ive got headache the whole day. so sad. i think its cus i slept too much. i slp damn a lot. and today, i ate too much so i still cant shed my 1.5 going on 2kg. so sad.

i cant wait for tues and thurs! its kenny rogers and suppers! but i dont wanna spend so much. sigh. being fat and broke is so sad. :(

the other day, me and philip ordered 2 pizzas and we finished! damn pro right. haha. we thought of ordering again this wk but i told him im broke and he said he will treat! so nice hor. i love him though his results suck. but he reminds me of myself la. sigh.

at 2:00 AM

Sunday, March 09, 2008

i just came back from ktv and its crazily expensive which is so sad. i spent 250 on hdd 2 days back and today i spent 40bucks on ktv. freaking exploiters. 5hrs of ktv with two bowls of dirty tidbits and its 40dollars? :( cab was abt 7 so not that bad la. i swear to get rich and buy over kbxx and i can sing for free forever and i will exploit pple too. haha.

sigh i think i talked too much rubbish. :(

and i think i shld start saving. :(

too many frowns. look out for the big smiles below. i hope you wont feel giddy due to the background.

at 3:56 AM

Saturday, March 08, 2008

i gained freaking 1.5kg. must be due to all the late night suppers. damn sian.

at 2:03 PM

this post was drafted 1/4-way on 3rd march but erm. im rarely online so... sorry to my dear fans. hi! pat is bringing sexyback. haha.

ive been sleeping so little these days and i feel busy too. its kinda crazy but good. i know my BEST FRIEND is sad cus we haven met up for a super long time. a week seems eternity right? btw. "eternity" is my current fav word. haha.

met my lovely Perfect friends on 29th feb! its a leap day. so special right. :) we didnt have common time to meet before char's bday which falls on 28th. :( sorry dear.

shopped with char in the aftnn and we saw a lot of nice things! some are too exp, which is very sad, so we bought only the nice cheap stuff. char did, not me. i wasnt really in a shopping/spending money mood. but i was happy still, though super tired. we went vivo after town to wait for kangs and she took eternity. we were both dead tired and i cldnt wait for dinner!! one of my fav times of every day seriously. every night before i slp, i think of what to eat for my brunch. and after brunch, i look forward to dinner. i think only food keeps my life going. you pple shld think the same way too! (no! we dont wanna be as fat as pat.) i love food. esp yummy food which makes me feel really satisfied. i was super hungry. lunch was yucky chicken teriyaki sandwiches from four leaves. very bad meal. so glad my carbonara for dinner was damn yummy! :( after dinner was monopoly at char's. its very high-tech. using credit card. haha. quite fun. except kw's madness. she motivated me a bit though and that morn, i refused to slp. read 11pages of straits times. incredible right? i know.

kangs was amazing cus she was talking to the cabdriver abt msia politics from vivo to yck and she refused to get down the cab and me and char were alrd in the hse. crazy right. but shes pretty knowledgeable cus i think she reads really a lot. girls. pls read more k. my colleagues told me when you read the newspaper, read the first few paras if you have no time. they are usually the summaries.

i was home at 7 and after uploading photos and reading 11pages of straits times, it was 9. i went to bed happily and at 10, i got woken up by the STUPID PERSON WHO WAS DRILLING RIGHT ABOVE MY ROOM. thanks. i cldnt slp at all. my room was SUPER DUPER NOISY and my room was VIBRATING. i was so pissed. when i complained to philip, he told me i shldnt get angry cus pple slp in the night, not in the day. he also informed me that there were two funerals downstairs. sigh. hes really so dong shi. anw. i cldnt tahan so bo bian lor. had to wake up to watch tv. after tv. i tried to slp at 1 since the drilling stopped for a while. i think my neighbour is really considerate. the drilling came back again. argh. i shld have known the drilling stopped cus it was lunchbreak! i viwawaed and chatted with gw. gw is my best friend lor. hes the best advisor. he reminded me the drilling wld stop at 3 so i shld try slping then. why? it wld be teabreak. hahahaha. hes damn funny right.

didnt slp at all. i was viwawaing the whole day. time flew and it was supper time! we went to the bishan prawning place. its freaking exp. pls DO NOT order the oyster egg. its really very bad. if you dont believe, order lor. ten dollars. the zi cha is not bad. though also exp la. oh. impt note: service was so bad. they were very irritating. even gw who is mr hao ren (nice) got irritated. haha. THREE waitresses were standing behind us, each from different stall, pressurising us to decide. we hadnt even sat down yet.

no photos of the prawns and prawning. but trust me, xuan is really the "prawn-machine", quoted from kent. she caught 7 out of 10 prawns. so li hai. i was damn lousy. zero. but ok la. quite fun. we are intending to go again. :)

sun-tue was busy dealing with my addiction with the sims. trying to quit it. really. tried all the way till 7am for two consecutive days. hahaha. crazy right.

cabbed to sch on wed for my socio paper. its 18bucks. so exp hor. but im v glad i didnt skip. it wld have been an easy paper if i had studied. too bad. hai. creamy chicken pasta for lunch was bad too. it tasted quite bland. the stats paper next day was a killer. i know where my standard is now la. so i really need to put in A LOT of effort. after the paper, i waited in sch for ONE HOUR for kent to come pick me. he was in jurong i was in clementi. one hr. we were going to the IT fair. crazy crowd. we cldnt find a parking lot. poor kent was sick. so poor thing. he looked so pale and he complained of stomachache every now and then. think he had food poisoning the night before. made me feel so bad. though it isnt my fault la. since he wanted to go. and driving a manual car, forgetting the directions, skipping lunch, walking in circles, pushing and squeezing and comparing of prices made him feel worse i guess. :( but nth is worse than me being his companion. he tried to shake me off at the IT fair. he was always running away if he cld find a chance to. very sad. but i told myself, he shld be rushing for time la... right?

after a few hrs of the above-mentioned activities, he bought a mouse and i bought two hdd! i spent 250 lor. a lot of money leh since im very broke. py said its too big. oh. i bought 160gb. nvm la. i trust kent. hahaha. :) lalala time for late lunch at 4.30! it was wanton mee. sounds v un-nice hor. but very yummy leh. marina square foodcourt. and i made him go check out miss selfridge with me. yay! got the dress i like. hahah :) lets go soon k char? though i think i dont need a business-like dress but er.

time for actual dinner. ichiban with my ex-colleagues. they forced me to eat a FEW pieces of sushi. im not greedy ok. i was forced. it was fun. i miss work. if only i cld continue working as FULLTIMER and higher pay. hahah. reached home at 11 and wy called at 11.05. supper!!! so last min right? we went a lot of places and we settled on bugis's beef noodles. after noodles was speeding on the expressway with windows wound down, hair slapping against my face, tissue box flying towards us, gw bullying me at the backseat, and loud music. hahahaha. it was so crazy but i think the whole day was pretty fun. love my friends. :)

today (fri) was bad before evening. family issues. caused by me. really happy kent was free to acc me for the night. i asked xk along and we went balestier for teochew porridge. headed to xk's hse ltr cus he wanted to bathe. 10,000 BC at bishan with xk gw jim and calvin. ended the night with supper (ba chor mee) at amk s11 with the same pple and wy and py. now, im going to slp. my eyes are damn tired. good night. its 5.40. omg.

at 5:50 AM

Monday, March 03, 2008

latest update:

A member of the public spotted the "group" at somewhere near habourfront.

Miss Neo, who does not wish to reveal her full name, sent the pictures she secretly snapped with her 2mp camera which produces ultra lousy quality photos, to The Perfect Times. She saw the group engaging in "abnormal" actitivies on Sunday night and immediately alerted the Police.

Due to manpower shortage and time constraints (Mas Selamat used up all our available resources), the four were gone when the Police arrived. However, Miss Neo confirmed that they were a group of 3 girls and one boy, who had a camera in hand EVERY MINUTE. She was on her way to have the yummy carbonara at Keppel club.

at 3:26 PM

Saturday, March 01, 2008

i just finished 11 pages of straits times and i think theres 14798 pages more to go. sat's straits times is crazy. but i need to read. i shld do that rather than slp and disturb pple who do not like being disturbed. sigh. sorry. moments of folly (again and again and again) as usual. finally stepped out of the hse ytd after 6 days of hibernation.

btw. i saw the following in the newspapers and i think i should blog before i go to bed cus er. seems kinda serious. its an urgent search for erm... im not sure either.

urgent alert for four:

the "group of four" is usually spotted among/with bushes and has extremely high fashion sense. above photo has been released by officials who are appealing to the public to come forward if they have information on their whereabouts. no further information has been revealed and reason for search remains undisclosed.

at 8:55 AM