oh, love's gonna get you down.

Monday, January 29, 2007

got a little affected by the tw actress who had just passed away. i was really hoping she wld be ok. i didnt know she was in coma until i saw the headlines when i went down to the mama shop to get some chips. yes. i ate one pkt of calbee and one pkt of twisties ytd. then 2hrs ltr, my mum told me she was dead. i was abt to slp. it was abt 9pm? sigh. pls drive carefully ok.

i think everyone must be really sad cus she didnt die of illness or wateva. she jus died so suddenly. i rem i used to tink of death all the time. cus i tink i will only get all the care and concern that i yearn for when i die. and i tink i will be really free from all troubles when i die. and the pple arnd me do not hafta worry abt me anymore. i thot it was really sensible thinking. really.

i didnt wana slp cus i wana watch hana kimi. it really makes me smile. bt then, as usual, it always hangs. i duno why. i cldnt slp well the whole of last wk. before the concert, i was still feeling unhappy. and these few days, i feel i haven been a good friend. a good colleague. a good worker. i shld try contacting my friends more. friends who deserve my attention. hai. duno la.

anw wen. i replied to ur comment below. go see. haha but i dun mind repeating it here. i love ella! shes super ultra cute. and wu zun is super duper shuai! :D i wish u went. i wish u wanted to go actually. haha. its worth it. :)

at 11:26 PM

Sunday, January 28, 2007

this video has my fav 3 pple. i love it. sigh. currently feeling down. i hope hana kimi can help me feel better.

ytd's concert was really really good. i hope it didnt have to end. i was happy that they were enjoying so much. well, they looked like they were happy.

got angry with my friends ytd. its not exactly angry. when im really angry, it wldnt be like that. i just felt bewildered. as in why? when i got a clearer picture from patrick and kent, i knew why. maybe i shldnt measure myself against others. and maybe i wld have been like that if i was them. but i hope, we can be friends forever. cus i dont want my friends to leave me. neo... :( we mus spend more time tgt ok.

patrick kept insisting that gw was angry. but i dont think so. cus gw is only clumsy. he will not get angry. i think he only gets angry with me sometimes though. sometimes.

i have a strong craving for sushi. but now v full neh. i ate meepok, eclairs and meat bun at 3.30. and fried rice, fish and honeydew at 5.30. not small portions my dear. its full portion. sigh. and aft concert, i went back bbq and ate a lot too. may God bless me with happiness.

at 6:27 PM

Friday, January 26, 2007

can my phone stop vibrating? aiyo. hai. anw. my appetite didnt get smaller! so sad! i ate pitted prunes, niang dou fu, durians, duck porridge, digestives, milo, pear & onion rings with mayo today! god.

i love the Perfects. i love wen. i hate char. her phone sucks. hahah but she got a new phone! i hate her still. am jealous. i love neo too. though she made me cry. u idiot. i will try to be happier. but i still wish everyone can be as happy as me and with me. is this considered selfishness? i am la i know. my thoughts and actions are always super contradicting. actually, my thoughts all contradict one another.

mon was mc day. yes again. fri mc. mon mc. felt lazy. met neo. ate jap food.

tue was the Perfects' gathering. crystal jade. all the Perfects helped choose a present for my lovely imperfect xuan. sorry xuan. i cant say that ur perfect cus only we are. hahaha. a big HUG to my Perfects who made an effort to meet me and buy the present tgt. i hope xuan will like it. u better like it hor!

wanted to skip lunch on wed and go order cake. von said i shld order aft work. no diff. so asked her acc aft work to go choose cus im super fickle and i can NEVER make up my mind. i spent lots of time looking at the catalog of shop A and asking pple to vote. in the end, i spent 5 mins at shop B and ordered a 2kg cake. not gona tell u the flavor. and shop name. but shop A has cakes which really make me go "wow". hahaha. love yvonne too! :D

zarina and connie and von and everyone in the company are so nice to me. i was busy wrapping hongbaos (3500pkts of $8 each neh!) for the drivers today so i missed the ordering time for my eclairs! zarina got dilah from another dept to help call to see if can make a last order. finally, the person told dilah i can make an order and to be delivered this sat instead of fri! by right, sat no delivery. but min 2 cartons. and lovely von and lovely aunty connie said they will get the other carton since i only need one. will be keeping in my freezer first. yummy. they are so nice and yummy. haha. so its finally settled! :)

today is home day. happy to be home earlier. actually, i haven done ot for a long time. and i haf been making a mountain of mistakes at work. slacking thru. sweeping stuff under carpet. i know someday, things will explode. shit.

jus finished tutoring philip ONE maths qn. boy. maths is really tough nowadays. i was stuck. patrick is damn good at psch maths. its crazy. even xuan got stuck. i asked my snr mgr today. she got stuck too. imagine la. this is nonsense. bt we were stuck cus we cant use algebra. we mus solve it using the psch way. boo. maths makes me feel dumb.

at 12:43 AM

Monday, January 22, 2007

we were qt close since year 1. maybe cus we were both from the same background. we became even closer later. cus we shared the same good friend. as things progressed on, she became my listening ear. a must-have. we knew the secrets of each other. we knew how each other felt. we gave each other advice, opinions, comments, help. she saw the bad side of me. she watched me go crazy. she watched me cry. she watched me yell. she saw everything no one else did.

one day, she told me she was leaving the next day. i wanted to meet her so we arranged to meet. i waited and waited, there was no call or sms. finally, she told me she cldnt make it cus she was grounded. i cried. i was the last to know she was leaving. and i was also the last to know she cldnt meet. i was really sad.

the next few months, our lives continued on without each other. we rarely see each other online so we rarely communicated. but a few times, i rem, everything was ok. maybe she didnt like the topics i started. but i only cld tell her those stuff as i had no one else to talk to.

as usual, i probed and i wanted to know more. she refused to tell. i told her shes evil. shes hardhearted. she was confused. but she will nv know the day she told me was grounded had affected me so much. the great disappointment she caused. the friendship i had treasured seemed like nth to her. all she cared abt was someone else. i saw the similarities btwn her and another person. both jus sadden me. i wish i nv met them sometimes. but since we alrd met, why cant they treasure me?

im crying now. i dont know why. i guess im still sad. yet she will nv know. its been a long time since i cried. i ate only grapes since morn. feeling v sick and nauseous. my life is sad. :(

at 3:11 PM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

my body is aching like hell. ive been feeling kinda nauseous since ytd. and today, i only ate 4 baos and 1 orange (cut by xuan) and many chocs (xuan's cadbury milktray). erm. its qt little considering my usual diet.

i felt like a girl once again ytd when shopping for accessories. we bought 3 pairs of earrings each. :)

photos...

gw's bday. happy yet sad.

last night before blood diamond. look at xuan's new hair. she cut it ytd. and look at my lovely button earring.:D

i love this top. but... its 60bucks. i love it cus its so sexy. hahaha.

i dont know if i shld get this cus the skirt is kinda ugly. but it fits me. its hard to find clothes u can fit into when ur fat.

at 10:17 PM

pat pat pat. only 80% full and not 150% full alright?

yea yea. will try. sigh.

im back! refer to previous post for reason why i had disappeared. u guys miss me? i doubt so.

watched babel ytd night. blood diamond just now. blood diamond is fantastic. though up till now, i still do not know why leo chose to die and not get up the plane. he really acts well. the show is qt educational also. i love shows that let me learn. babel was... they complaint and said its lame and all. i thought it was ok. just kinda slow-moving. the naked girl was really funny. and porno.

suddenly felt like eating kfc so i met xiuzhen at sun plaza the other day - a place i haven stepped into for a year i guess. she gave me cash for the concert instead of transferring to me as she does not know how to use an atm machine. hahaha. i told her i wld spend it all. and i did. today is sat. she gave me on wed night. i have used up the money and i even withdrew more.

thur was dinner with the girls from stnicks. i missed wen. i love neo. i wan to love karen. haha. and i dont tink i love kang. time spent with them (including xiuzhen) is nv enough.

fri was dinner at swensens with all my lovely colleagues. im leaving that place soon. haf announced the date to all. actually i can choose to stay. but then, since ive announced my decision, then i shld jus follow it thru. i dont know... income no more. sigh.

btw. i took mc on fri cus my eye was swollen. i took a pic actually. but i thot it was very horrible so i deleted it. i dont know what happened. when i woke up, my right eye was already swollen. doc said it might be infection. GPs usually know nth la. they only take abt less than 5mins to draw a conclusion and send u out for medicine and payment. oh. 5mins include writing an MC. so good hor. in jus mins, he can earn like 30bucks?

wanted to meet neo for movie. but i felt v lazy. so i called it off. shall meet her next wk. =)

i wana slp now. i thot xuan was supposed to come online. i tink she is a liar. her bday is coming! and i still got no idea what to get for her. this is shit.

at 3:37 AM

blogger is super jian. i knew it. the reason for the disability to blog for the past wk: laziness to change to the new blogger. wateva. i blogged twice on 14th of jan. managed to retrieve one entry cus i always had the c&p habit.

it was at 1.20am...

i dont know wat ive been doing. today, i ate till i almost puked. ytd's lunch also. anw. ive got a strong craving for fruits now. really strong. i need to get pears tmr.
gw's bday was spent with all girls since guys are in the camp. glad everyone came - shan zhen me xuan ai stracy. while waiting for gw ai and zhen who were stuck in jam to arrive, we played arnd with the kodak machine. damn cool. i developed 4 pics. lovely. :)

dinner started at 9 since they only reached then. ate in a rush as the place closes at 9.30. i ate super a lot. evil stracy gave me an additional bowl of pineapple rice. shes v evil. she shld act in curse of golden flower. then i ate 2 slices of super yummy yummy choc cake! its so chocolatey! :D haha ai made gw wear v silly things like a barney mask and a party hat. she also made gw eat 21 fruittips. i ate 8 too. all at one go. v swt but i love fruittips. still love them. haha. took pics of silly-looking gw and some videos. wait till i feel like uploading then i'll show u.

fri was ktv cum buffet. my cousin's 21st. the venue cost abt 350 and the buffet less than 400. but shes got like almost 1000bucks worth of hongbao. and many many presents. i wan my bday to come soon! i shall invite 50pple. hmm... but then i wont get hongbaos if i invite friends only. if i invite my father's side, i doubt they will give me hongbao la. hmm... nvm... i shall not hold any party though a party will be real fun. my bday falls on a sat leh. so nice. which jus reminds me of sth, xuehui's bday will be on sat also cus its the same every yr. we will definitely not be invited... hai nvm.

sigh. i wish i cld get over this. it is year 2007 and yet, nth seems to be changing for the better. i can dont school and cont working, but my life wld be qt stagnant and my future wld be qt predictable - date a taxi driver and get married unhappily. then again, it sounds bad but it might not be right?

i thought of setting aside 1000bucks for my bday. and my aunt said im spending too much. yahlor. i shldnt spend so much. philly's friend invited 500 pple for her 21st. i think this is craziness. who has so many friends? not me definitely.

sigh. i hope and pray this yr will be good for me and that i can meet more new pple who can brighten up my life. its been this dull since the end of 2005. i dont know.

i wana go msia soon and i wana go perm my lashes soon. i need to cut my hair also. my cousin said my hair is nice. so happy. now it isnt alrd. my fringe is getting irritating.

at 3:08 AM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

the weather has been freaking warm. i jus ate ice cream. so nice to eat ice cream on such a hot day la. i ate a tub. hahaha. no la. i ate a lot but not a tub. maybe 1 quart lor.

wat happened last sun was (continuation from last last entry)...

aft night at the museum, kent and xiankun went home to take mahjong. teck and wy went home to take red wine. xiuzhen went to meet her sis. me xuan met up with patrick and t siang to do a super last min steamboat supermarketing. we tried to get wateva food we cld and we spent abt 70. there was no meat left, no corns left, no a lot of things left. hahah but the dinner was qt sumptuous leh. shit. MEIXUAN. WE SHLD HAVE TAKEN A PIC. we brought out the mahjong table for the steamboat. there was hardly space for our rice bowls and drinks. oh yah. not to mention nice nice gw came and fetch us from nrthpt. my v nice mum who was sick still cooked rice and made the soup base before she left for work. :)

played a bit of jenga while gw and kun went to fetch winson. maybe guys dun really enjoy jenga so we changed to blackjack. and they actually played this game from then till 4plus? patrick was entertaining them by losing money to them. haha and me... i was watching tv and living in my own world. got la. i did serve ice cream and deep-fried chicken, fries and nuggets for their supper.

3 cheers for meixuan who helped wash the plates and bowls. 3 cheers for the guys whom my mum complimented. she said they are very wellbehaved and not noisy. =x haha i tink she was dead tired thats why she didnt hear anything.

this was my new year's eve. it was spent like cny hor. haha gambling and steamboat. jus that got no oranges and hongbaos.

now its an update on work and my life.

still the same. cab to work at least thrice a week. been v busy recently. and justin has jus tendered. simon will be leaving with him too. the thought of quitting keeps running thru my head. but... i cant quit. i need money. i tink i will really hafta look for a part time job when i start sch. i haf v little savings. and i need to pay for my insurance also. :(

i feel that ever since i took up this job, i have became a pusher. i tend to push things arnd and become not as helpful. but then again, i hope its only like this in here and im actually not like this cus aft all, the company and customers really suck and if i dont learn how to do taiji, i cant breathe. in the past, i used to help wherever help was needed and not needed. pple from other depts wld ask me to assist them in a lot and i wld do. i guess they all know im really busy and seldom disturb me as much now. haha. next wk onwards i will be handling general enquiries. i hope everything will be fine cus i really dun wana be frustrated with work anymore. we are now down to 4 staff and sometimes we even hafta lunch in. but i guess the management doesnt give a shit cus they tink we can survive. we can. but we are unhappy. so are drivers. duno la. wateva it is. this job is not for long. one of us will be deployed to amk once per wk. it is very dumb. do they know we are drowning? i really hope to see the day when both yvonne and me tender.

the entry is super long. but i wana blog abt ytd then i wana go surf for blogskins. i wana get a tagboard. for me to tag to myself. :(

met xuan to get present tgt with patrick. he came along cus erm. i asked him along? it was v rush. haha saw shunyi in the train with her BOYFRIEND. she was wearing a black dress and they were super intimate! hahah i got xuan to take a few shots of her secretly. hahaha we felt so jian but i dun care. life has to be made interesting by myself though nbd is interested in me.

we wanted to get my cousin's 21st bday present and we had robinsons vouchers so we went cityhall. but the thing we wanted was out of stocks. xuan and me were super hungry so we went to buy our movie tics first before we ate pizza. wahlau. ytd i spent a lot leh. ltr u will know why. we bought deathnote 2 and patrick bought blood diamond. he said 4.5/5 stars. hmm...

the chicken supreme and garlic bread really filled our stomachs. happily, we rushed to somerset robinsons. the same thing: out of stocks. so we decided to go OG and not use the vouchers. luckily got lor. aft we settled everything, it was 6.15. our movie was starting at 6.30!! we practially sped back to marina sq gv la. hahaha and xuan rushed to the loo while i bought our must-buy popcorn but i didnt buy my must-buy nachos cus was still very full from the pizza. yay! we made it! we didnt miss any sec of the show. the movie was damn long. 2.5hrs. my butt was aching. not as nice as 1. charmaine my pretty and sexy cousin said 2 is nicer! siao leh.

rushed again, to meet my cousins cus they gave me like 13 missed calls. most from patrick. 8 of us were gg suntec ktv to sing. it was from 9-4am. 28nett. ok right. and i ate super a lot of koko krunch prawn crackers orange pillows etc. so more worth it ma. hahaha. but more fattening also la. :( finally, we cabbed home.

anw we were super jian. we poured all the nuts that we didnt wan into a plastic bag and we kept requesting for more. haha. cus free flow wat.

at 4:51 PM

zuo wo de gen wo chi bang... :(

good morn. tired to blog... tmr maybe...

at 5:15 AM

Monday, January 01, 2007

finally am here to blog. its been a very hectic wk. the guys and one girl jus left my hse abt an hr ago? ive cleaned up the whole place and tmr i need to do some shopping again.

kun helped me buy gv tics online. the first txn failed. however, i jus found out that gv had alrd deducted money from me for that failed txn. damnit. i hafta call and ask tmr. sian.

we watched night at the museum. there were 8 of us. wasnt as funny as wat they said. the beginning was a bit boring. i only liked the last hr. again, we bought nachos and popcorn.

im lazy to blog abt wat happened aft that. when i wake up then i blog k. i guess i might not. cus im going shopping!

super full now. ate a lot of durians! i jus ate 5 pcs! and its like 5plus in the morn?? god. sinful.

at 5:42 AM