the song weihong sent is so nice. haha.

the past wk was kinda hectic. in summary, i took cab 5 times. totalling up to a sum of 7 + 7 + 7 + 24 + 28 = i hafta use a calculator... 73. WAT THE FUCK.

argh. nvm.

mon was the 30th. kinda busy but still ok. tue was 31st. and sri wh justin and meifong all took mc. we felt paralysed. 4 of us had to serve 200 over customers and we collected 42000 bucks from the stupid drivers.

the past one wk, ive been getting v v sick of my LOVELY customers. esp the ones that belong to a certain race, who owe a lot of rental, and still demand for stuff which they are not fit to demand for in the first place. (ok. this is kinda biased and exaggerating. they haf the right to la. but im jus pissed off having to waste my time doing stuff for them when they cld actually haf cooperated in the first place and things wont haf turned out that way.)

why complain when u cause all the prob? vincent always tells me, dont complain if u started the prob. he is talking abt me. me!

and my mood fluctuated qt a bit ever since the new temp staff came. shes called april and she stays near me. shes only 16 and shes v immature. she cant sit still and it seems like she can achieve nth. hai i shldnt use the rest as benchmark. but seriously, wh and wb are the best temp staff and they shld get awards for this la. the BEST TEMP STAFF or sth.

her appearance didnt make me happy. though shes supposed to. cus one more man means a bit lesser work. however, it only told me wh hansen and francis-papa were really leaving. its v silly sometimes, cus even now, i will tink isnt it so nice to see them on mon, giving me a surprise? haha but no. they are all leading their own lives now. im not immature or wateva u tink i am. i accepted the fact that they were leaving which explained why i was happy on fri, smiling and having blusher and mascara on.

francis-papa has found a new job. i hope he will be happy and smiling and not using his hanky to wipe off his cold sweat all the time. i hope his new colleagues will be as nice to him. he had gone thru a lot to reach this far but he still left.

hansen is of cus studying. wh is going hk and japan and then tmc to study. wonder when he will get a diploma then degree. but at least he says hes starting, unlike damian - i said this.

hansen was being v cute on thur. he said, pat... will u "shu yuan" me? u dont "shu yuan" me ok. hahaha. i laughed and said hes v cute and i cant give him an ans cus i really cant predict wat will happen. but i said we will all meet for dinner. hes such a cute and weird friend. hes really v weird. for your info, hes the one who doesnt like taking public transport bcus he finds it awkward having to face strangers thruout the journey. weird right. haha.

i know we somehow can make it thru though 3 of them haf left. and i know meifong is tendering this wk. which means another one down. i will work till mar i tink. though i feel maybe i shld chg to a diff field bcus i do not wan to be doing cust service in future, aft i grad. i wana be involved in projects. i love doing projects. i hate doing following-ups with customers. yes. our lovely drivers.

my work has been getting slipshod and ive been grumbling a lot. this is v bad. but im really tired of producing sth good when they dont appreciate eventually. somehow, u will always be scolded. will they ever praise u? no. wh is right. today they smile bcus uve done sth good to their benefit. they thank u. they praise u. but when sth goes wrong agn, its really ALL MY FAULT. when its not even my fault.

nvm. i feel v immature grumbling abt my work and stuff. bcus my bro told me, i shld learn how to handle stress. and i feel i can. so i shld know how to. i shldnt grumble. wanted to continue on the fact that i feel stupid being pushed arnd like a ball sometimes. this only happens once in a while. which is a big "whew".

francis me von hansen and erm april went bk for dinner on tue. he was calculating sth using our birthdates. and he said qt a bit abt all of us. haha. he said me and hansen are v disorganized pple. but im worse. im a v messy person. haha. and he said i can be a good businesswoman. wh too.

i nv tink of doing business. but aft working here, i know i dont wana end up like ml, justin or francis, 27 or 40, and yet they do not know where they will be heading to or being stagnant, stuck in cust service line. i wana achieve much more at their age. i dun wana survive on jus 2000bucks per mth.

francis lisa meifong wh hansen all said i shldnt be here. i shld be achieving sth greater elsewhere. and all my poly friends and sec sch friends ask me to quit. patrick said i shld find sth which is related to sth which i will be doing in future.

i agree. i wana try working in diff fields, to see wat i really like. i shldnt be doing this trial thing only aft i grad. it will be too late. imagine my resume, 3 mths events, 2 and a half mths advertising. or wateva.

if i quit in dec, i haf 3 more mths before sch starts. anw. i mus really really start scrimping and saving. bcus im gg thailand... im gg in less than 2wks' time. can i talk abt it ltr?

then francis also looked at my palm. before he even said anything, i screamed. haha. cus i was v shocked that my palms got a lot of lines. and he said, all these show that im v troubled. a lot of troubles. hmm... hai.

vincent is calling. but i dun feel like talking. haha can i dun pick up? ok he has put down alrd.

on thur, my senior manager gave me 200. haha so i spent 199.80 on 4 pizzas and 32pcs of kfc and a lot of sides. invited another dept (fm) to join in. was qt rowdy. but it was a simple and pleaant dinner. with qt little conversation. it was meant for the farewell of our 3 guys.

fri was meeting up with vincent. wanted steamboat at bugis but everywhere was crowded. so we ate chicken rice. such a simple simple fare and we had to go all the way. and the chicken rice was not nice at all la. then sat at a cafe till almost 3. saw melvin also. haha he told me a lot of juicy gossips. gossips excite me. seriously, gossips are wat keep me gg on at work. haha no la. this is crap.

ytd was out with wh. spent the whole day walking and walking. i tink his ear drums shld be hurting. i grumbled and complaint and cursed and swore the whole damnit day bcus everywhere was freaking crowded. maybe cus we went vivocity. i didnt even haf the mood to look at anything. but all the shops are big. as in zara forever 21 esprit and all...

queued for more than half an hr for sushi tei. imagine. i hate gg out on wkends. we did watch a movie though. so ok la. at least achieved sth aft all. but watching a movie = taking cab home. from vivo to yishun, its 28 bucks. i can go indo and buy a hse lor with this amt lor.

if i knew gw was free, i wldnt haf watched the movie. i rather meet up with the guys. they went newton and mind cafe right?

i wana do some shopping. but ive spent 500 on the bangkok trip alrd. and patrick vincent and my friends have been scolding me for being a carrothead. i really v pek chek la. A says A, B says B. i trust A but B doesnt trust A. wat was i supposed to do? so i listened to B and in the end A keeps scolding me for being stupid but B keeps telling me all sorts of nonsense. hai. i trust A actually. cus hes my family. and i love my family more than any one of my friends. but then, wats done is done.

xuan and neo got qt agitated also. when i announced to them the news. i really didnt tink much when i made my decision. i dun even tink i made any decision. it was jus a casual remark and the next min, the tics are being booked. i jus hope my family and friends can stop making me feel stupid and regretful.

mum has nv called me so many times in a day. jus to ask who im gg with and all. i only told her before i stepped out of the hse: im gg out now. gg thai so am gona buy tics.

i cld tell she wanted to ask me not to go but i jus left anw. i duno.

pls dont make me stressed up again. i get affected v easily abt wat pple say and i do not wan to cancel at the last min. and u know, i will cancel it even if i hafta waste the money for the airtics.

patrick said he knows i will enjoy bcus he says i deserve a break. i dont know. i jus hope i wont be bored or make pple bored. and i hope i wont spend more than 1000. patrick set a record though. 4d3n bangkok 1.6k. and his airtics cost only 200odd. wat the hell he spent on right? i do not know. maybe condoms in thai are v exp? hai wateva. i wana tell myself it wasnt a wrong decision made. if only i had bote the lcd tv last wk, then i wldnt haf money to go bangkok.

i shall claim my ot everyday so i can save much more when sch starts and help pay the sch fees. i shall work part time when sch starts cus im old enough.

spent 30mins blogging and i know its freaking long. but i haf too much to say. shall not apologize bcus i shld learn not to say sorry when its not even my fault.

but still, sorry anw.