i watched crank last night. its full of crap. its like softporn la. and its only m18. wth. my eyes were hurting like shit and i kept tearing. not of cus of the sex scenes. its cus my eyes were overly-used i tink. hai.

was super busy at work ytd. i duno. work has been always busy anw. but goody. im taking leave from 17-23 nov or sth. hahaha. its good to take a break from work. i wonder if it will make a difference to the rest when im not arnd. i will be rather pleased with myself. haha. then again, im not looking forward at all to thailand trip. :(

the first digit in my bank book has dropped by 2. which means e.g. 7000 minus 2000 = 5000. for this mth. damnit. i spent freaking so much la. cus why? i paid for the air tics and hotel. dont scold me ok. im alrd v upset over being a carrothead. i shld have heeded patrick's advice and booked online. argh. damnit. damnit damnit. i cld haf saved bloody 150bucks la. and damnit. my amore. haven been there AT ALL. and the membership expires in early dec. damnit. omg. im hopeless. my horoscope alrd told me i hafta be more careful with money matters this mth cus money keeps gg out. this is from neo's website. and i jus read the papers, it says, im rather generous this mth. wth la. can i dont be generous?? nonsense.

took cab twice this wk. -APPLAUSE- wh is super proud of me. and i actually cld make it to one. cus the first time was really beyond my control. i really had sth to do before i went to work. then ytd morn was bcus i cldnt squeeze into the freaking 169. :) so now u see why i wana shed my fats. cus i cant even take buses anymore.

glad i saved a bit on cabs. dinner at spaggedies last night was like 40bucks. i treated. and then there was movie plus popcorn? so in the end, i choose not to take cab home. taking cab is so wasteful lor. (yah. i know pple like kent vincent wh xuan will all laugh. I REALLY DONT WANA TAKE CABS ALL OF THE TIME actually... its jus... i cant help it sometimes ma.)

anws. pple jus dont use their brains and think. i didnt. but my ass helped me to think. goody. the sky is kinda dark now. my room is in a chaos. its full of dust. sigh.

mon-thur was not in a happy mood. drivers were asking me whether i was in a bad mood, why didnt i smile... haha i duno la. its hard to smile when im not feeling extremely cheerful. but ytd i was! until the day ended. i felt so slpy that i said i wanted to go home at 1am. this is my earliest fri night! i slept so soundly in the nightrider that i wished the ride cld be nv ending. i didnt even wana get down the bus. and when i finally got home, i looked at my bed and i was extremely pleased that the majority of us own a bed. i love home. :) -singing... this is home... truly... where i know i must be... where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows... this is home... surely... where my senses tell me...

ok stop. but hey. the song is qt nice ma. hahaha.

this wk has been rather bad for me. i met 3 guys and im super irritated with myself. not them. why am i so softhearted? i think i might be buying stuff from them lor. im in deep shit. i hate myself. i feel so so stupid. and i felt so upset the whole night. my mood was really bad. the stupid stupid james made me miss my train 3 times and i was really pissed. kai called and he made me more upset. supposed to meet the james today but kai told me not to. and im meeting kai on mon. i duno. wats with all these pple? stop targetting me can.

and then theres jeff... the guy who looks kinda pathetic to me. can i jus reject his offer? i seriously dont know. i guess i shld try my best to make myself happier and not others. im so fan now.

was apologizing to wh cus i was late for like 2hrs and i gave the reason: the surveyor stopped me and u know right, im a nice person so bo bian lor. i had to listen to him.

and wh said: yah if ur nice, u wldnt make me wait for so long.

hahaha he is right.

btw. 4 RGS girls are working as temp with us now. i seldom interact with them. they are supposed to do a survey for our company. they are really damn smart. they dont even hafta take o levels. and one of their fathers is a PILOT! wahlau. freaking rich. how nice to haf a pilot husband lor. i wana get married! :( i heard they did a very good job, from surveying to tabulating data to anaylsis and conclusion and report and ppt slides. the company really zhuan dao lor. dont even hafta hire professionals. they cost only like 6 per hr. haha.

i hafta go wash my plates now. breakfast was wanton mee plus a bit of char kuay teow and mee hoon kueh. i wana go take a short nap. the weather is so nice. :)