we were qt close since year 1. maybe cus we were both from the same background. we became even closer later. cus we shared the same good friend. as things progressed on, she became my listening ear. a must-have. we knew the secrets of each other. we knew how each other felt. we gave each other advice, opinions, comments, help. she saw the bad side of me. she watched me go crazy. she watched me cry. she watched me yell. she saw everything no one else did.
one day, she told me she was leaving the next day. i wanted to meet her so we arranged to meet. i waited and waited, there was no call or sms. finally, she told me she cldnt make it cus she was grounded. i cried. i was the last to know she was leaving. and i was also the last to know she cldnt meet. i was really sad.
the next few months, our lives continued on without each other. we rarely see each other online so we rarely communicated. but a few times, i rem, everything was ok. maybe she didnt like the topics i started. but i only cld tell her those stuff as i had no one else to talk to.
as usual, i probed and i wanted to know more. she refused to tell. i told her shes evil. shes hardhearted. she was confused. but she will nv know the day she told me was grounded had affected me so much. the great disappointment she caused. the friendship i had treasured seemed like nth to her. all she cared abt was someone else. i saw the similarities btwn her and another person. both jus sadden me. i wish i nv met them sometimes. but since we alrd met, why cant they treasure me?
im crying now. i dont know why. i guess im still sad. yet she will nv know. its been a long time since i cried. i ate only grapes since morn. feeling v sick and nauseous. my life is sad. :(