if i knew i wld be depressed, i wldnt haf eaten the hou dou bing. hai. :(

ytd was a moody moody day for me. maybe cus i felt a bit alone. but ltr on it was ok le... had dinner with johnathan yati and za. za pulled me along and i thot that it was good as well cus i cld get my bro's uniforms. we took cab and reached there at 830 but the shop was closed alrd. me and the shop arent fated leh. always nv get to buy my bro's uniforms. its the 2nd time alrd. so pls stop growing fat le ok philip.

both occassions, we ate satay club. i drank one coconut, one ice milk tea and ate one egg prata, a bit of tauhu goreng, a few chicken satays and ketupat! my fav. felt super full. and bladder was bursting. cldnt even type a sms to da xiong properly. haha. the 3 of them took cab but me took bus. v broke leh. i paid for the 2 mutabak and 2 egg prata ma. haha.

now still full also. supposed to go gym but i felt v lazy. now i also feel v lazy... feel like slping le. i ate nasi lemak and one hou dou bing. its the red bean ice cream. dad bote 4 boxes. which means abt 20 sticks or more? im not so sure of the qty but im sure hes mad.

gona meet justin wh serena and corrina ltr... lunch... since i pangseh them for gym. but i HOPE i wont be eating. cus im fat enough. depressing.

za was so pissed the past few days. hai i duno... i hope she doesnt hafta go. feel so sian. work is getting v sian also. im so afraid of appeals. im so afraid of taking queues. how i wish i can work in the office, not in this company though... and i can jus slack arnd and not eat so much... i find joy in food thats why im using it to destress i guess. only food can make me happy meh? hai. this is sad...

meifong is leaving also... but i wont make them stay la. i can only try and encourage them. things arent that bad aft all. it jus takes time. though im really feeling v sian over the changes in the company every now and then. the lead time for an appeal to be approved is taking so long. we pple facing the drivers get all the shit. do they know?

im also taking v little queues now. tink my performace for last wk is kinda bad. esp that im sitting at counter 1o. so far away from everyone... but under the cctv. :x

za seems to be unhappy with all our colleagues in one way or another. except me. i duno... luckily im not lisa's apple of the eye. nvm... long story... politics are so scary.

vincent. u mus stay ok. i wan u and wh to stay... but u guys haf commitments elsewhere le... so im jus crapping la.

shit. i feel really fat and ugly.