i used to want to not like s.h.e anymore but the more i want to, the more i cant.

i was at the vcd shop today and i stood there for 5mins watching selina sing... 还是会寂寞

早已忘了想你的滋味是什么
因为每分每秒都被你占据在心中
你的一举一动牵扯在我生活的隙缝
谁能告诉我离开你的我会有多自由
也曾想过躲进别人温暖的怀中
可是这么一来就一点意义也没有
我的高尚情操一直不断提醒着我
离开你的我不论过多久还是会寂寞
别对我小心翼翼
别让我看轻你
跟着我勇敢的走下去
别劝我回心转意
这不是廉价的爱情
看着我对我说真爱我

i love this song. i wana sing it soon. i wana get a lot of ktv vcds and sing at home. im so gona get the s.h.e concert dvd la. cus i love them.

i wanted to borrow vcds from another shop but the person said she needs my ic. so i went home and took my passport (i lost my ic in bkk) and also mum's ic (just in case). i went down again and the person said she needs my ic cus it has my add. then i asked if i can use my mum's. she said my mum has to come down personally. glad my dad came over and helped. he was on his way home. 3 cheers. but this didnt end my unlucky day. aft borrowing 4 discs, it started raining. went watsons and bought a red polka dot umbrella (v cute). not long aft we (i forgot to mention philip was with me) stepped out of the shop, the rain stopped. BLOODY SHIT right. yea. :D smile pat. listen to selina's song.

got up qt early to burn songs for teck ytd. then went maine's hse to get my birks. hai. its ugly. mum and philip totally agreed. they added oil and salt and vinegar and sugar and more. :( nvm. 70 bucks ONLY.

then gw drove us to city harvest. i think pastor kong's preaching was really good. i will go if wy invites us again. but i wont join cus i have no time to be committed. i got emo a few times and nearly teared. xuan too. i didnt cus ive learnt how to control. crying is good though cus it really does help relieve stress. try it if u havent.

ive been eating too much everyday. the feeling of puking comes every now and then. yet im still eating. am i too stressed up or wat? i got no one to relate to... hai... nvm... forget it. hmm. maybe i shld go city harvest hor?

aft the easter play, we went kunion at cine to give kent a surprise. his gf and his fam spent abt 2000 for his 21st la. so much money lor. ate like nbd's business. haha. was fun cus when i go ktv i always zi high anw. sang a lot with the girls - zhen&xuan. but stress not fully released yet. i need more ktv to shout out all my unhappiness.

btw. i've decided not to celebrate my 21st alrd bcus i will nv get the present i want anw.

k. back to kunion... kent got drunk and he was sent home by gw and lala. we stayed till almost 4. hahah his friends all left before us. we were qt bored at first cus the friends were singing and we had nth to do... so... urm. haha. we took some pix. actually. we took many but not gona show u the ugly ones.

bday boy --> kent!


we were bored... we want to sing!


the flash light of sony ericsson is too bright. oh. i think i might get a canon cam leh.


haha i like this pic cus i think we were v cute. (yea. look at my stupid face.)


rabbits.


my lovely friends.




ahhh!


hmm...?


oink oink.


haha now for some random pix which i wanted to post but was lazy to switch on my hp laptop. now ive got the software in my dell laptop. goodie.

nah xiuzhen! this is wat i did in msia lor...


and nah! this is my current nails... i like. :)


rem there was once i wanted to pack my room and i took out my clothes from the shelves but was too lazy to fold and put back?






my hair grows v fast leh. this is the length when i acc wen to cut hair. one mth ago?


hahaha i wana mk my face look slimmer... this is the length of 2 wks back i think... haha.


i wana cut my hair. but then i love it. i love my hair when i have good hair days.


found this in my album so i just post lor. this entry is flooded with ugly pix alrd anw. this is wat i wore on chu yi.


my birks! its too small. i told maine to get size 40 actually. i think she didnt note it the 2nd time. cus i said 39 at first. :( but nvm la. i know most of the time, in life, we cant control a lot and we cant get wat we wan all the time.