oh, love's gonna get you down.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

i spent two entire days searching for hairspray blogskins, or some other nonsense-themed blogskins. but uh. saw nth i like. i dont like my current also if you think i have bad taste. i jus wanted a change the last time so i changed it. its always better to make one of my own but im super lazy.

aft the 3hrs of revision last night, i told myself that was not enough and i hafta do more today. but all i did was to stare at my foolscap. and fell aslp once, in the midst of staring, for 3hrs. :(

anyways! nvm abt the past. lets move forward!
im pleased to annouce, the 2nd round of revision shall commence now.
(er yah. 11.55pm. on a sunday night, before a working day. yay. claps claps. pat is so clever.)

wait. before i go off, i have 2 pcs of good news and 2 pcs of bad news for you.
good news first k.

good news :)
1. neo called from bristol!!!
2. kangs finally replied our smses after a week regarding the stayover this wkend!

bad news :(
1. i didnt ans neo's call cus i was watching tv.
2. kangs cant make it for the stayover.

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Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

at 11:49 PM

underdog may seem lame. but its true, that,

there is no need to be fear,
when underdog is here.

haha patrick and philip are singing the underdog song next door.

so we were late for nanny diaries and caught the abv-mentioned movie instead. surprisingly, not bad. and i think im really sentimental. i kept thinking of "spot". but i'll nv get a dog. hahaha my god! im starting to talk in rhymes like underdog. haha his name is actually shoeshine. so cute right.

did my maths for abt 2-3 hrs last night. good achievement. i need to start again cus i think i forgot everything alrd. and its not even one chap lor. can u imagine? one qn requires 2 full pages of the foolscap paper? nonsense right. i shld get cheaper foolscap. argh. maths. i put my phone on totally silent mode (not even vibration) cus i was really struggling at the start. i didnt even understand. argh. maths.

attending lects but mind wandering off = might as well skip lects. which i did ytd but i swear i felt really bad. like i did sth really wrong. and then i played cluedo with philip and watched movie. i shld have went church with wy this morning right. hah.

and last night, i wished i had someone who could teach me like in the past. cus nobody is taking the same subj as me and er. which reminds me... sigh nvm. :) luckily i managed to figure out. otherwise, i might jus get really really emo and have a long slpless night.

there is really a lot to fear,
when the exams are coming near.

at 1:15 PM

Thursday, September 27, 2007

i jus did sth which i...

sth which i think was qt brave of me? i dont know. sigh. anw. it will be sth which will not work out. things i do nv work out.

my heart really stopped for like 4 secs.

-

every lect, i feel stressed and i feel like i need to quit my job. but what abt pple's expectations of me? and my expectations of myself? so its gona be lesser of tv shows and lesser of meeting up with friends.

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i think im mentioning this for the 3rd time. i said every yr my bday, or whenever i go to a temple, i wish for the same things. health happiness for my family and sth else. so happiness is alrd taken away from me. and now health for my family? bad health = unhappiness.

life is pretty unfair. some mean pple get all the good things in life and i thought i was mean?

i know life isnt that bad but when i think of things that are happening beyond my control, i jus feel so. urgh. ARGH DAMN IT. i did everything that i cld. i did. but did things become better? no things became worse.

and now, i know i shld have quit. actually, i know i shldnt have rejoined. but what can i do? i can give a weeks notice and go. but can i? i mean i can, but will i?

i have given up the idea of being happy cus i know this will nv be true for me and i know my hairspray girls out there will say, hey pat we love you much much and we are here for you all the time, but girls, sometimes, love jus aint enough. hahahah ok. its a song.

and whats with making a bday wish before blowing out the candles? whats with slapping your friend's face and mk a wish if you and her happen to say the same thing at the same time? whats with wishing at the shooting star if you see one? what crap.

nevertheless, aft my grouses, i guess i still cant let go and i still am hoping though i blogged and said a billion times that hoping is stupid cus hoping leads to greater disappointment and sadness. thats what im doing.

gd night pple and neo, i love you so and im really glad there are pple like you who believe in friendships.

at 11:38 PM

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

so this is how we say goodbye.

at 1:03 PM

Monday, September 24, 2007

siti gave me 4 missed calls lor. haha so paiseh. she called to ask what i wanted to buy from bodyshop. that crazy girl spent 100 over aft discounts. i wanted to get a blusher brush but i cldnt tell her since i was slping and didnt ans the phone. :(

so slpy today. my eyes were damn tired. i came home and dropped dead until my mom woke me up at 9 to watch tv. i kept talking nonsense. was too tired la. we played 4hrs of cluedo last night. damn fun. i love cluedo. haha crazy chick said sacrificial ham is smart. :) nobody has said that for a long time. im not smart la. "you jus need to ask strategic qns". and we all conclude that neo cant play the game cus she gets confused damn easily. hahaha!

oh hi neo! i hope ur reading this (and not that) and i hope ur feeling comfy and safe over there. pls wear more and dont flirt with jerry. lock your doors at all times! haha.

sigh. work again tmr. :(

things to do asap:
revise
pluck brows
revise
cut hair
revise

at 10:36 PM

Sunday, September 23, 2007

sigh...

窗外阴天了
音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了
音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了
人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了

电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了

灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

:((

at 1:21 AM

Saturday, September 22, 2007

我以为要是唱的用心良苦,
你总会对我多点在乎.
我以为虽然爱情已成往事,
千言万语说出来可以互相安抚.

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It turned colder, that's where it ends
So I told her we'd still be friends
Then we made our true love vow
Wonder what she's doin' now

Summer dreams ripped at the seams,
But oh, those summer nights

at 11:24 PM

bought the last piece of ella's cd in the shop didnt make me v happy. am in the mood for emo songs tonight.

suddenly felt like buying stationery so i went popular aft sch and got 13 pens and 100 paper cd sleeves. :) i also bought a wrapping paper for neo's present. haha. i wanted to get highlighters but i think i really overspent alrd la.

my mum said my butt is damn huge now and she didnt dare to tell me. thanks ma. at least this comment really helps to make me not eat potato chips for 2 days. though i jus ate a lot of peanuts which are v unhealthy also. sigh. my hairline is kinda receding also. its v sad lor. but its time for neogeo. i go every two mths ma. how? my hair is thinning. i shld not cut right?

math was really boring and its damn torturous. miss meena made things better by announcing that next wk, there will 2 lessons of maths! wth right. wed and sat. and followed by a test next next wk. sigh. ive got sociology test next wed and i haven started. i tried to read last night and i fell aslp. i think i really gotta start reading and writing some notes by the side ltr.

defragmented my pc last night and sorted some stuff also. my photos are taking up almost 15gb of space lor. shit right. was thinking of buying a hdd but not that safe either. or burning into dvds? if we really buy wii right, jonathan will always come over and play right? hes qt irritating. jonathan is my next-door neighbour.

btw. im installing skype now. goodie.

at 9:28 PM

Friday, September 21, 2007

i won for mj! did i mention this? hahah :) $4.60 leh.

cutest chick's flowers! so many right. crazy chick.

wii!

wii again!

more more!

wii wii wii! i wana buy wii!

at 11:54 PM

Every afternoon
When the clock strikes four
A crazy bunch of kids
Crash through that door

They throw off their coats
And leave the squares behind
And then they shake it, shake it, shake it
Like they're losing their mind
You'll never see them frown
'Cause they're the nicest kids in town!

at 10:30 PM

Thursday, September 20, 2007

our v sumptuous dinner with mooncakes :)

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

at 2:51 AM

i really love philip and my mum and the Perfects a lot.

my mum changed my bedshts and im really happy cus it makes me feel v comfy? haha i dont know. and philip got scolded bcus of me. so i love him. :) went dinner with them on tue night and i think they seemed quite happy. if possible, i will meet them tonight for dinner aft school.

well, life has been pretty busy and i hereby announce, yesterday, i watched hairspray for the 3rd time!!! hahaha. this is crazyness right. but i love my girls. we sang like nobody's business in the cinema each time we watched.

before hairspray, it was mac breakfast at st. nicks! haha crazy right. went all the way to st. nicks for breakfast. and finally, neo wasnt late. i took cab again. sigh. have been cabbing a lot. but i know for sure, after this week, i wldnt be cabbing much anymore. of cus other than work. i cabbed from char's hse to work on mon morn. then home to work on tue morn. and today, cabbed from home to char's then to mac. and from mac we cabbed to j8 and from j8 we took a bus to thomson. and from thomson we cabbed to char's again. though we shared, but it really seemed a lot of money spent unnecessarily.

anyways, nvm abt the cabbing. i will definitely try to take lesser of it. and i will also try to eat lesser. jus weighed myself. freaking 70. but i know its cus ive been eating really damn a lot of potatoes and chocs. ever since the 7th sept, ive been eating damn a lot cus we bought 30bucks worth of chips and choc cookies and stored in our office pantry and i eat that almost everytime after lunch and after work. i finished 2 cans of pringles, 1 box of cadbury choc cookies and 1 big jack and jill potato chips all by myself. i know this is crazy. what about my own storage at home and the many stayovers at char's? the other night, we spent 16bucks on chips also. and we ate raisin bread at 3am? wat the hell right. i even ate half of her cadbury bar lor! v shitty. sigh.

but stress really really makes me feel hungry leh. during mj, i felt super stressed cus gw and char were both like gona win, and my stomach started to make noise and asked for food. not to mention at work la. i get assigned many impt tasks but i cannot say no. i am jus a part-timer leh but i get heavy responsibilities. cant help thinking they are making use of me and that im cheap labour? sigh. nvm. not gona talk it. i cant do anything abt it anw...

sorry. i know i talk a lot. so last night ended with a lot of hugs and thanks from neo and i am really glad everyone enjoyed the day. i wana thank gw for helping with the poster which everyone commented that i shld have asked him to put all our faces but there was no time la! i only asked for his help on sat aftnn and i had no time to find a nice photo of neo cus i was rushing out to meet who? to meet the Perfects. i didnt have time to find nice photos of the rest also. and i didnt expect the frameshop to be closed on sun so i cld only make the frame on mon aft work. luckily, the blur uncle managed to finish on tue night and this morn, i quickly hid it in char's house. i'm really sorry so er. maybe next time i will get gw to do it and develop one for everyone ok? haha yay!

was so tired on mon that i really dropped dead at 8pm. cus i slept at 4.30 on the same morning and i woke up at 7 for work. my eyes were really damn painful and swollen the whole day la. after work i still had to go a few places. really almost died. had to collect my cam from my cousin. collect the photo. collect the frame. but everything was worth it! :)

i also really really wana thank char for all her effort and all her sleepless nights and for sending me home each time i went her house. shes's damn sacrificial la. im so useless. sigh. thanks char. this is really v v sincere. thank you and you're really the greatest chick that i ever did see. :)

everyday spent with my lovely friends was v fruitful and fun. every min spent was worth it. though i kept complaining that i was tired, but i really was. sorry for the grumblings. i hope everyone had fun. i cant wait for 9 months to be over. hopefully, by then i wld be v slim and we cld mambo every wed nights and eat papayas for supper after that. haha.

take care neo cus we love you much much. -hugs- don't be sad ok cus you're the boss!

at 1:22 AM

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

im so hungry now! :(

i slept at 9pm and i just woke up. haha but i guess i will slp again later.

and char the cutest chick that i ever did see is still not sleeping yet. she's crazy. we are supposed to meet for breakfast leh.

been so tired recently that i was barely coherent at work. sigh. im quite worried abt my new staff. i'm not going work today and i'm afraid she can't handle it. i'm also feeling kinda stressed cus i gotta train two other new staff next wk but... i'm no longer a perm staff. will i be able to do it? and my executive will be sitting inside. super stressed la. argh. i dont want to say the wrong things or do the wrong things again. which i know i definitely will.

at 4:14 AM

Sunday, September 16, 2007

good morning baltimore! its 5.35am and i jus came home!

was a fun and tired night. a lot of eating and dancing and prancing and burning and shouting. i love the girls. more of these ok. (except eating pls. we ate damn a lot la.) i'll wait for you to come back. :)

anw. kw was v worried abt me. haha shes damn cute. she told me to cover my chest and clevage. im safe and sound la. the taxi driver was busy bullshitting abt his daughter. vp of a "big company", with bonus of more than 10months a year and she gives her mum $2000 per mth. i didnt wan to doubt him until he said "da gong si" which means big company. he sounded like he was unsure of the company's existence.

its suddenly raining and its so shiok to be in bed but im not slping yet. i can slp the whole of tmr! so happy. :)

btw. the Perfects love ham!

at 5:49 AM

Saturday, September 15, 2007

hi im finally home. so slpy.

felt quite emo the whole night. felt v mean to meixuan also. i guess its my way of showing my emo-ness. and stupid neo still smsed to say i mus show more emo-ness. sigh.

now i know why ive been eating so much the past 2 wks. emo + stress + xxx = binge. sigh. what a formula.

i still feel that din tai fung's la mian is better than crystal jade and imperial treasure. anw. i will try and maintain the friendships we have.

aft imperial treasure with sue neo ness, i went bugis for prata and mind cafe for "risk" with my polymates. i rem the last time we went, we played "im the boss" and i won. today, i won again for "risk". quite unexpected la. but board games are qt good. they help kill time.

ds lite? hmm... super mario... hmmmm...

at 4:31 AM

Thursday, September 13, 2007

this song has been in my head the whole day.

Hey look out for that moving van
Driving down our streets
You better lock up your man
Before he meets

oh. and its my ring tone too. pls call me more! :D

i skipped ibm lect cus i overslept. sigh. i didnt actually oversleep la. i was feeling lazy. woke up at 11 when lect was going to start at 12. i cld have went late but... lazy la. anws. glad i stayed home cus there was a delivery for me! :D my textbooks are here. all the way from london! yay! though i was qt pissed with the man cus he woke me up.

philip who is only 10 yrs old said that im wasting money cus ive been skipping lects. :(

ytd was a day of waiting and waiting. i left my lect halfway to meet neo for botak jones and she kept me waiting for one hr. we ate 10,000 calories and carbo i think cus the stupid fries were freaking a lot la.

then we drank chinese tea at kfc and ate mooncake at char's while waiting for gw. waited and waited and when it was almost 12.30, he told me he cldnt meet me. wah. i think im an angel lor. i didnt even get angry or anything. maybe cus the night was qt fun. hahaha. im thinking of nintendo ds again. isit worth buying? im super not IT-saavy la. hmm...

oh. and today, i also waited for stracy for half an hr at sim bus stop. jus to pass her a card.

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i dont know whats happening to me. ive been eating quite a lot without control. its v obvious that im overeating cus i still continue eating though i feel bloated. take today for example, i ate fried beehoon, 1 milkshake, 2 oranges, half a pkt of salted green peas, 10 cubes of cadbury choc, a few mouthfuls of curry chicken rice for lunch. then teabreak was waffle with peanut butter. dinner was 2 slices of papayas, 1 orange (again), the other half pkt of green peas, 8 cubes of cadbury choc, niang dou fu (4 fishballs, 4 crabsticks, 1 tofu), steamed egg with meat.

ytd was better. chicken rice, one slice of papaya, frosties and milkshake for lunch. teabreak was cheesecake and 1 peanut dumpling. dinner was a lot of cheese fries with cajun chicken. supper was mooncake. was qt glad i didnt meet gw actually.

the day before was milkshake for breakfast. half a can of pringles for lunch. plus curry rice with fish and veg. teabreak was 6-8pcs of cadbury choc biscuits. eh thats v yummy leh. i shall buy for philip next time. dinner was 2 slices of pizza and what my mum cooked. i forgot what la but er. ive been eating a lot of pringles and frosties and cuttlefish and cadbury cus my house has nv-ending supplies. sigh.

ok. im going to slp now. tmr is another long day... dinner and supper. sat is a long day too. i wan to stay home to acc my mother cus the house seems really quiet nowadays.

the entry seems v ptless hor. I WANA SING KTV AND PLAY MJ!

at 11:13 PM

Monday, September 10, 2007

im actually feeling very slpy. but i dont feel like slping yet. maybe im still full from the fries i ate for supper? i bought Large cus i thought xuan might eat some and she did. 2 pcs. thanks xuan. sigh. i regretted buying fries la.

patrick went batam today and i expected him to buy donuts and he really did.

but i really cant eat though i really wld love to. i feel v full. and my appetite hasnt been good these few days. though i ate 4 plates of sushi and a buds ice cream jus now at sakae. haha. but i really hen jiu nv see xuan le ma... :(

patrick is going army on tues. so fast right. i think philip wld be qt lonely and bored. me too. a person missing in the house will be kinda diff... i shall be nicer to philip. sigh.

i wana go ktv qt badly. i dont feel like singing. but i jus feel like going. i wana play mj too.

listening to radio at night gives me a very weird feeling... its like, hmm... nvm... hai.

btw. gaowei is a v funny man. hahaha.

im slpy. i shld be slping soon.

oh my pc went crazy. the time and date changed to 1980 april 2am or sth. so weird right. hmm. kinda freaky.

at 1:57 AM

Sunday, September 09, 2007

im super hungry.

at 5:24 AM

Saturday, September 08, 2007

ive been slping and slping and slping.

was suffering from body aches few days back and throat was kinda sore... symptoms of falling sick. true enough. had fever the whole day at work on fri and at night was mooncake fest celebration - with curry puffs, pringles, cheezels, ice cream mooncake, normal mooncake blabla. as usual, i cldnt resist the chips. sigh. and i think ice cream mooncake isnt nice lor. traditional ones are nicer. lina and siti spent 30 bucks on tidbits and i bought 30 curry puffs. crazy right.

the whole of today, whenever i try to swallow sth, my right ear will hurt like hell and my throat also. damn painful. urgh. its really super painful. eating was nv so suffering. sigh. i hope i get well soon.

at 6:44 PM

Thursday, September 06, 2007

so sad. im listening to ella's new song dedicated to her dog. he or she died qt recently. sigh. my hairs are all standing. both lyrics and melody composed by herself lor. so nice...

download it here.

and the lyrics are here.

薔薔之歌(想念版)
作詞：Ella　作曲：Ella　編曲：王治平/Josh　演唱：Ella

還記得妳喜歡咬著我的手　然後給我妳嘴裡的球
要我陪妳玩丟丟

妳喜歡我摸摸妳的小耳朵　窩在我的身旁
沒有煩憂　在夢裡遨遊

好狗狗　好狗狗　謝謝妳陪媽咪這麼久
妳並沒有離開我　是搬到天堂生活

＊薔薔　妳要記得我　妳不要走丟
　快快找到天使　在天堂給我(們)保佑
　薔薔　不要忘了我　還有親愛的阿姨叔叔和妳的朋友
　妳永遠活在記憶中

Repeat all once

薔薔　謝謝妳

Repeat ＊

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i need to get my s.h.e dvd and also! xiujuan didnt even return me my qiang wei zhi lian book lor.

at 8:59 PM

we should hold a hairspray party cus...

Hey mama hey mama,
Look around
Everybody's groovin' to a brand new sound
Hey mama hey mama,
Follow me
1 know something's in you
That you wanna set free

anw. im back! hairsprayed again with two perfect chars at cine and rushed down for dinner at suntec with mingxuan and gang. then met char at amk s11 for v yummy ba chor mee. which my idol kerliang also likes! haha. and met neo at zouk at 12 for mambo. oh. the crowd was v young and disappointing. and i think my 36dollar prettyfit are totally worn out and scratched.

thats not all. night is still young baby. haha. went tongshui at 4 for peanut butter thick toast, crispy pork floss thick toast, lychee cooler and chrysanthemum tea cus we were super thirsty from all the singing. lastly, stayed over at char's. :)

oh. i also went to the police post jus now. super sian and super slow la. i feel so tired now. wanted to meet xuan for lunch but patrick asked me to be home early and i guess i can meet her on sun la. and also i haven met gw for qt some time? though he doesnt care. and i wana meet xiuzhen also. and im so sad i missed the party la! :(

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counting down to the departure of the Neo - 17 days. (haha im more emo than pris right.)

at 1:24 PM

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

haha have been doing a lot of silly things on facebook but it makes me realise i have no friends. if only more of my friends use facebook, it'll be quite fun. sigh.

i feel like shitting.

finally unpacked my luggage and its gona be a long day ltr.

been quite obssessed with a particular scent. and this scent brings back a lot of memories. haha sounds crazy right. i think our nose always confuses us. i was super confused at DFS the other day. dad asked me to get a perfume and since huizhen said DFS is cheaper, i was thinking jus buy a bottle lor. so i sprayed like 4 and i got super confused as to which was which and i sprayed again and again whenever i got confused.

i cant even choose what to eat for a meal. can i even choose which scent i like? haha.

was so tired ytd and finally removed my makeup at 2am and went to bed. :)

so i didnt mention abt the trip, did i? i think my dad has really changed a lot. for the better of cus. which is good la. and i think philip is really cute. he's super adorable and handsome. i told him i'll reward him for his first and one and only band 1 for the year. i will remind him again later. its so nice giving presents to pple. esp sth which the person really likes.

oh shit! haven gotten my s.h.e dvd yet! and oh. i saw high sch musical TWO dvd in thailand but i didnt buy cus i was not sure of the quality. hey neo. its showing on 7th sept on cable if im not wrong. go watch!

at 12:34 PM

im super tired. so tired that i jus wana sit here and stone. my shoulders have been aching since morning. and my mgr told me i slouch qt a bit. sigh. im so tired and i really wana slp. and guess why i cant? im too tired to remove my makeup. :(

argh. i haven unpacked my luggage yet and i gotta go to the police post tmr. sigh. im so tired!!!

at 12:20 AM

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

sigh. i jus weighed myself. i gained 4kg from the hols. hai whatever. i will go and slp now. v tired. gd night...

i think my parents are really nice la. my mother is so tired but both are packing stuff for philip's camp tmr. hes bringing 2 big bags. crazy right. chalet isnt even so troublesome lor. haha. they are sucha happy family.

at 12:24 AM