im feeling so slpy. just finished the boring "the curious incident of the dog in the night-time". YAWNS. i find the narrator really irritating and i guess i do not have that kind of patience to deal with "special" kids. i think my mum is amazing cus she needs to take care of autistic children too. gonna read "postcards" by annie proulx. i hope it'll not be as bad.

my stupid computer has acting like a snail ever since last week. think it got some virus or spyware or malware or whatever la. damn damn slow. its not damn. its super damn. i hate coming online now other than checking mails and movie timings. argh.

life's been... i dont know. not very busy and not very slack either. i need to work! patrick said that ive worked for so long but im still so poor. its v true. therefore, the following items in my shopping list are to be striked off.

-havis
-black crocs
-watch

but i think im still gonn get the havis la. 32 dollars ok right? i always wanted the black ones.

i was being really unfilial last night. im the eldest and yet im the only one still dependent on my parents financially. but if you ask me is my dad the greatest? he is not. haha no la. i can say many good things abt him. i do not think our parents are supposed to work so hard just to provide for us. i think parents are the most taken for granted and most unappreciated roles in society. its really sad if you put yourself in their shoes. sometimes, they get nth at the end of the day. i really think my parents are good enough for a daughter like me and i hope they live till 100 so i can have another 50 years to work hard and pay back.

my dad came home with rambutans after the minor argument and he told me he was wrong. i was quite surprised and well, i did reflect before he came home and i think i get influenced really easily. bad bad. bad daughter. bad person.

btw. ive decided not to care so much abt certain matters cus im really poor. im tired of paying for stuff first and asking back and i always lose some. if i complain this to h, he wld say, aiya. its only how much. yah. to you is "only how much", but do you know how many presents, dinners and whatever i paid first? i always lugi for the service charge lor. i dont know how come its never right. everyone says im rich. im not lor. maybe i was. but bcus of the little little amt of money lost from these transactions, im not rich. i guess sometimes pple do treat me and i admit i was always taking cab to work and i watch a lot of movies and spend money buying dvds and eating at "high-class" places and splurging in supermarkets and buying clothes online that turn out to be ugly and i cant wear and anw, the list goes on la. i dont even have readily available cash for my sch fees. im so useless right cus i only spend and take and spend and take. even char is taking up 2 jobs! therefore, first step to being richer: eat cheaper. we're gonna eat at coffeeshop on thur!

k la. i dont know what im saying. im just grumbling for fun. i love my friends and i always comfort myself they love me too. maybe my mum and bro are right. friends are just friends. but of cus i know a few who will be my BFF. :)

in conclusion, to help me, tell me if you're looking for a perm part-time office job. pls sms me or tag my board k. though i think nobody reads my blog. well, at least i tried.