do you know? my temper is actually not very good and i cannot really take criticisms. i quite dislike it when pple tell me what i shld do what i shld not. i guess ive been doing a lot of wrong then, cus nowadays, pple keep telling me i shld do this i shld do that. they are right but... i dont know. im stubborn. sometimes, i will not answer/argue and i will still think the way i always think. shld be. i dont know. oh. you can comment on my obesity. i think its totally ok seriously. i accept them.

reason is, i THINK i can judge for myself what's right and wrong. (take note of "think") of course there will be lots of time when my thoughts are different from others and i find myself v stupid but its ok to be different right? i really admire py for being so cool abt everything and not caring abt what pple say behind her back. damn pro la. i wanna be a selfish person i wanna be not nice i wanna be myself. aiya actually, all these issues have been haunting me since dont know when la. i bet i blogged abt this before.

another thing is, im always avoiding issues. i always have a lot a lot of thoughts but i bottle them up. i tell others but not the person involved and i know its not right. even my mum says so. she told me i shld tell the person so that in future, things will not be always repeating and the contents in my bottle get more and more and just erupt someday but the person doesnt even know what's happening cus he/she didnt know ive been unhappy all along. you know?

i feel that im getting ruder and ruder to my friends. like my eq is damn low now. i dont know why. maybe its cus i dont wanna please my friends anymore but its really v bad. really badd.

i think im quite comfortable with the way things are. i mean, nobody is perfect and nobody's life is and its tiring to make both perfect. but still, ive made some resolutions secretly and hopefully, things become better.

random thoughts. super hot. gonna on aircon.