i cant believe i just realised this - its my fault when friends drift away from me. im selfish. i do things for my own interests. i say mean things all the time. i never thk before i speak. and i guess its always too late to say, sorry i didnt mean it.
these few days, ive been feeling quite worried. worried cus i seriously and sincerely find men disgusting. i dont wanna be involved with any man. er. as if its happening or will be happening but yah.
i wish i was a nicer person. a natural. meixuan and elizabeth are really nice pple. xuan is cfm a v nice friend la. shes forgiving and kind and patient etc. we passed by nyp last night and i know, we cant turn back time.