some stains cant be removed, can they?

i tried. but i either made it worse. or made no changes.

im talking abt my bags btw. i like things to be perfect. otherwise, i wont be bothered at all anymore. e.g. i hate to miss any part of any episode of my tv shows or having a scratch on things i newly bought. if i miss any part or ep of my show, i'll not care anymore if i miss any ep. you know? or if there is any scratch on my new camera, i'll not care abt it so much anymore. haha nvm.

this year, ive been very selfish. when i came back from taiwan, i know that i shld stop trying to be selfless. not that the change has made me a happier person but... omg. what am i doing? shldnt i be the nice old pat again?

sigh anws. ive been spending a lot this week. almost 300 in two days. i better stop. i wanna save up to get a laptop. my friends are all going away this year haha so cute. van is gg australia. char and sue are going europe. neo and py are going usa! be safe my friends! and im quite sure it'll be really fun and enjoyable. haha and im not a bit jealous at all. maybe cus i know what are the things i shld do and not do. do only things that are within your means. i'll never fall for stupid facial or insurance sales pple EVER AGAIN. i thk. nono. I MUST! not.

im not a stupid girl actually. and to prove philip that, i spent half hr or more on some stupid iq thing though i was dead tired from work. which shows that, if wanna do sth, i can do it. i guess its the same for shedding some weight. i er. just ordered 2 pizzas and theres nobody at home hahaha.

finally after such a long break, me and liz commenced our study sessions again. same old place. same old food. but i like it. kinda taxing on my bank account though. when i was working last wk, i ate macs and subway everyday. for lunch and dinner. since most of the time, i was on full day shift. thats like abt 15 bucks alrd? woah. so 8 days of work = erm. isit $120? yea around that la huh. im quite lazy to double chk.

ive not blogged the small little details of my life ever since 8th march and you know why? i reformatted my handphone! everything in my calendar and notes and smses were deleted. but its ok abt the smses. when you arent in love, its totally fine. as i was saying, i cant blog cus i cant recall a single thing at all without the help of my phone! yes my memory is damn bad. sigh.

i just read the entry posted on 9th march. i rem i made a little positive change after kent "scolded" me. which is good la. im quite glad i talked to him. but it wasnt him that made me realise i shld change. but myself. you know me la huh. always saying one thing yet doing another. i dont mean it when i say i dont care. sometimes.

i thk the next few days after the 9th, i stayed home most of the time and tried to study. obviously, staying at home to study is a very bad choice. you tend to watch tv or like go online and waste a lot of time. this is why i hate going online. and on the 12th was work. 15th-22nd was work work work. hehe but it was pretty fun and enjoyable. i love teckguan! he brings joy to my working life! hahahaha.

one of the nights, the guys wanted supper. and er. kent fell aslp and only replied me THE NEXT MORN. the rest of us were just waiting for him stupidly lor. but i was v tired also la. i fell aslp on the sofa. patrick came back with sushi so haha. i had supper after all.

oh yah i just recalled sth. last last sat, me and my mum went chinatown to visit my aunt and we did a little shopping. everywhere has sales la. me and my family went robinsons sale and i tell you, its really cheap lor. sigh. i wanna get another perfume but im lazy to go down. changi leh.

last wed, me and neo wanted to visit sn cus seeing the lastchillout photos made me realise that i do miss my sec sch life a bit. i always thought i dont care. but now, i wanna go back and take one last walk and look before it closes down. however, we didnt go in the end and i watched shopaholic with xuan! hehe. shes so happily in love la. her bf drove me home somemore. hugh dancy in the movie was DAMN SHUAI lor! omg la. hes like perfect. hahahaha.

last night, me neo and char went dinner at nydc and drinks at reddot dempsey. i thought it was a pretty fun night. hehe. we talked a lot of naansense. neo totally suck at drinking games. hahahaha. but i still love her. as much as i love my fish.

ok! im meeting van ltr for dinner! hehe. it'll be great too! :)