im gg to be damn fat. a taxi driver told me if you eat too much coconut milk, you'll have a big butt. omg. ytd's lunch was curry rice. teabreak was mini rice dumplings in coconut milk at lerk thai. snack was garlic bread and a nap immediately after. dinner was curry rice again.

today's lunch was laksa and a 4hr nap str after. dinner was curry rice again. im sorry. i really really love curry this much. sigh. sorry pat! sorry to my fat body.

its so weird how friendly my new friends are. they are like planning a ktv after my last paper. i didnt expect their plans to include me. there's also some sentosa trip. i never really liked gg out with my friends' friends cus i dont like them to be talking to the person and not me or talking to me and not that person. i dont like it when im out with my friends and the bf/gf comes along and keeps quiet. if he/she is friendly, i think its not that bad. i dont like it when im out with my friends and suddenly, someone else we dont really know v well appears and our friend didnt inform us before we meet up and im not v close to that person or i think that person shldnt even appear bcus its a meeting meant for just us? but this kinda thing, just let it be... and it'll be over. unless it keeps happening then i think i'll not like to hang out with you as often cus its not a just-us thing anymore. i'll wonder, will it happen again? btw, whatever i said applies sometimes. sometimes only. depending on my mood i guess. i can be quite grumpy and irritable.

i think studying is ok. but i still try to avoid if possible cus i dont really like meeting new pple due to my inferior complexity. so far, things been ok and this year, ive made like 10 or more new friends from sch! i dont think i'll be maintaining the friendships though i feel bad la. its like, you only talk to the person when you need to. rgd sch stuff etc. v bad hor. liz can do it lor. i wonder how she manages to have so many friends! shes mad. i dont even have time for my current friends. i think i have time but i just dont know how to manage. the worse thing is, i'll still be getting damn cui exam results. damn sian. think i dont study smartly. sigh. im gg to retake my accounts for sure. so disappointed with myself. i dont know how come i forgot all the formulae and layout but the next day after the paper, everything was so clear in my head! what the hell right. sigh. whatever. i can never work under stressful situations and if there's a time constraint, omg i tell you. i sure cork up like mad. nvm.

on a lighter note, im alrd in a post-exam mood. hahaha this is quite a bad note to make. im making plans to meet up with my friends before starting work. the last time i saw the guys was the night before neo left. we had supper at thomson prata hse and yp said he felt that my driving was ok even though kun and kent kept asking him to bao zhong = take care & good luck. stupid boys. but i miss them!

btw, whoever is my friend and is reading this (im v sure no more than 5 pple read my blog but ya), i'll be starting work on 1st june! i'll only tell you what it is if you ask. but im sure i'll be meeting up with everyone i want to meet up with anw, before i start work. :) i look forward to next next wk! hehe. its the week of freedom! haha though i still have one last paper on 26th. ive got dinners to go to alrd. i love meeting up with pple i want to.

i think im quite lucky. i have a few friends looking for a job snc its their sch hols now and my sim friends also want a job for our 3-month sch hols but i alrd have one waiting for me to start! but i know when i grad, i'll be spending months looking for a job that pays reasonably and i like. as if opportunities will come knocking on my door again. most prob will end up somewhere i can make do with snc i dont know what i like yet. that totally sounds like me. unambitious. ok la. i want advertising or events or magazines. but im not creative. so sad.

im thking of starting work earlier actually. i dont think i need rest. though i also think i shld rest la. i work so hard for what. hmmmm... sigh. nvm. sometimes i wish everyone will not take things i say to heart then i can say anything i want about you and everything i feel. however, i just cant do it cus nobody can take it. im how strforward. so, i'll just keep quiet and try not to care abt anything bcus i know i can. i can ignore whoever i want to ignore and i can stop talking to you forever if i want to. i can lead a life of my own. obviously i'll still talk to the pple i need to - my colleagues, my bosses, my family. other than that, i think its ok. ive stopped craving for movies and food anyway. these two activities require friends. for me at least. but im also happy staying home and forcing flips to watch dvds with me haha. and he'll love to eat with me too. i dont really need a social life. dont worry. i'll still be friends with a few pple i want to remain friends with haha.

haha nvm. i dont know what this post is about and it seems like im talking nonsense. today, i slept so much but i was still v irritated cus the weather is crazy hot! and my mum kept talking to me non-stop abt whatever that's happening in her life and in her friends' lives and i cant study. i'll be meeting LFF and ade and mel to study on mon so i hope it'll be a productive day though er. nvm. hai.

ok! im gg to watch tv. hehe last ep!! i love MARS and RAINIE!