i can choose not to care and be selfish. i can choose to say whatever i want to and not care abt how you feel.

but i need to stop. i need to stop grumbling abt my colleague to my colleagues and influencing them. i need to keep the disgust i feel in me and lower my standards and be a less anal person. i need to accept and be calm and try and see the world in a more beautiful picture.

in concludes, i need to zip. concludes sounds better than conclusion. dont you think? try reading it out.

i can afford to lose a few more friends and its fine with me. but if we can choose otherwise, why not? maybe cus i cant be bothered to try. im so weird huh. and when i lose them, or when i dont see/hear from them, i blog abt how lonely i am. maybe i shld stop blogging.

btw, i dont like to hang out with pple whom i thk do not like me. sounds ego hor. but, so?

sometimes, im flooded with work that i cant be bothered with the outside world. its so noisy out there anyway. i rather be alone. i just want to go home after work and rest and relax. i dont like alien hair and cats and dandruff and urine and pple shaking my hair. i dont like my work place to be infested with... i dont know? and polluted. its stressful. omg. i just realised a clean and relaxed working environment is so important. sigh.

all my friends shld rem i stopped befriending this guy who urinated on the toilet seat. its damn disgusting. seriously. i think its v dirty and inconsiderate.

ok im sorry. i shall stop and think abt how beautiful the world is.

im not v clean but it doesnt mean i cant feel uncomfortable. ytd, in the train, a china man sneezed and sth cold fell onto my foot. i tell you, i almost cried.

nvm. on a lighter note, yappy surprised me today! hehe he's so so sweet! im glad things are ok now. homie and me shared long hse prawn mee today and i brought her to eat the apple crumble at dino which is a super rare item! its qt exp though.

tmr got work again. i cant wait for next week to be over. hai. my results are coming out soon. sept i thk. patrick good lor. gg korea... shiok hor. i also wanna go. but i need to settle my sch fees first.