today, i didnt feel like talking to anyone at all. im v glad there was adeline arnd to talk to liz. i walked by myself, with the phone in my hand, as always. there were smses left unreplied but i really had no mood to reply and if im moodless, my replies wld reflect my mood and i shldnt be rude to my friends. in the end, i still messed up a conversation with a friend. i really shld stop and think sometimes before replying. actually i do. but when im not in the EQ mood, i just say whatever i feel and its really all heartfelt words. and i really shld stop thinking so much abt every single statement made by pple. smsing and msning really bring about a lot of miscommunication and i love smsing lor. the night before, a sms made me cry. thinking back, how silly i was. and thinking further back, i wish i didnt say a lot of things i had said and which started this whole shit.
in class, the phone rang. i didnt want to answer. i knew if i did, i wld be thinking abt work again. last wk, i decided not to let work take over my life so i stopped checking for mails. i tried. i think i checked about 5 times? today, i checked only twice. thats v good!
sigh. i really feel that my life is so messed up and i wish there was an eraser which can remove all the stains i made. all the words and all the actions.
ok. this post is so random cus my thoughts are messed up too. nvm. i shld learn to relax. relax pat.
oh yah i wanted to watch dvds over the weekend to destress and er. the dvd cldnt play.