kent is super sweet. when i saw his reply, i cried. i know it sounds kinda ridiculous but seriously, i was really touched. im extremely thankful that i have friends like him & neo & char & shar & van & tg. i know no matter what happens, they will always be here for me.
i nv thought i wld feel so alone... its so scary. i dont want the same feeling i had 4 years back. and the same thoughts i had in the past, are back to haunt me again... the thought of watching a movie alone. the thought of going hols alone. the thought of hanging out at the beach alone.
so ironic. i feel alone and yet, i also want to be. im not in the mood to talk to anyone at all actually. which is gd... gd for my revision...
sigh. if praying helps, im gonna pray every night. i just did. last night. i prayed that i will be healed soon and that He will forgive me for things i shldnt have done and said. i will try my best to lead a better life, for myself. i will forgive, forget and move on with... grace.